So, i'm pretty much confused about my orientation. I know I had been attracted to girls all my life, I'm 20 now,& it's been 9 years i haven't told anyone about my feelings. Lately, i've been having 9-10 guys talking to me, and they seem pretty interestsed. I find them all really sweet, but don't have that feeling you know. I feel like i'm forcing myself to pick 1 of them and try to like them, but nothing is happening. You know, it's like I don't find myself smiling when they say something cute, or have that urge to keep talking to them when they wanna keep the conversation going. & It's the exact opposite when it's with a girl. I've been really unlucky in life, No girl has ever been interested in me. Most of them don't even like talking to me.. so I was told, they're all busy looking for guys and have no time for other girls(so every girl around me is obviously straight). I have my heart jump when I see a girl(i'm attracted to), rather than a guy.
Also....I like this girl, she's closetted too. I really wanna talk to her, but the problem is, we're from the same community & same country... & she's seen me on this lesbian site..with my pics on it...& so have I! I've sent her a few messages but she's not responding/replying to them. maybe she's scared? I don't know? How should I talk to her? I've her facebook, I wanna add her up but... we have a lot of mutual friends but thats just scary, coz she can easily out me to those people( & they're my really good friends). I don't want them to know. Do you think there will be a chance of her telling them about me, if I add her up?
Also....I like this girl, she's closetted too. I really wanna talk to her, but the problem is, we're from the same community & same country... & she's seen me on this lesbian site..with my pics on it...& so have I! I've sent her a few messages but she's not responding/replying to them. maybe she's scared? I don't know? How should I talk to her? I've her facebook, I wanna add her up but... we have a lot of mutual friends but thats just scary, coz she can easily out me to those people( & they're my really good friends). I don't want them to know. Do you think there will be a chance of her telling them about me, if I add her up?