So. I'm just kinda putting this out there I guess.
Sometimes I think I am, other times, I think there's just no way that I could be, I'm still normal sized and I eat three meals a day.
I do count calories incessantly. I overestimate many times of the day, round up, and beat myself up for going over 2500 calories or so. This is a huge amount of calories, I know, but that's not just it.
I'm a runner, soccer player, etc, and I run about 2-4 miles everyday along with sprints. I think about calories the whole time. they are a large part of my motivation. I freak out and curse at myself if I skip a workout, I get on the scale a lot.
But I can't really be anorexic, I'm only 120 pounds and I'm 5 foot six. I don't have much fat - I can see a lot of my ribs and quite a few veins in my arms, stomach, and legs, but maybe it's just because I'm athletic.
I battle with myself a lot about this, I really think that some people are so much worse. I can't stand it if my friends don't eat around me, it makes me feel fat to eat on my strict calorie calculated diet.
I really don't know what to do, my life is not in danger and I love track and soccer and succeeding in both, but I'm not sure if this is an actual problem I need to address or if I'm being a hypochondriac.
If it helps, I am a perfectionist, I'm already on Prozac, and I'm seeing a therapist. yeah, so that sounds great.
Sometimes I think I am, other times, I think there's just no way that I could be, I'm still normal sized and I eat three meals a day.
I do count calories incessantly. I overestimate many times of the day, round up, and beat myself up for going over 2500 calories or so. This is a huge amount of calories, I know, but that's not just it.
I'm a runner, soccer player, etc, and I run about 2-4 miles everyday along with sprints. I think about calories the whole time. they are a large part of my motivation. I freak out and curse at myself if I skip a workout, I get on the scale a lot.
But I can't really be anorexic, I'm only 120 pounds and I'm 5 foot six. I don't have much fat - I can see a lot of my ribs and quite a few veins in my arms, stomach, and legs, but maybe it's just because I'm athletic.
I battle with myself a lot about this, I really think that some people are so much worse. I can't stand it if my friends don't eat around me, it makes me feel fat to eat on my strict calorie calculated diet.
I really don't know what to do, my life is not in danger and I love track and soccer and succeeding in both, but I'm not sure if this is an actual problem I need to address or if I'm being a hypochondriac.
If it helps, I am a perfectionist, I'm already on Prozac, and I'm seeing a therapist. yeah, so that sounds great.