Am I becoming gay?

[tawny]

I am in my thirties and have always been into guys. I have never in my life thought about women sexualy. Untill today. My friend of ten years spent the day with me at my house. She is also straight. She was wearing very tight pants. I began watching her butt every time she got up. I did not want to I just could not help it. I felt so wierd but I just kept staring at her behind. I then noticed how beuatiful she really is. She is thin and healthy. I had strong urges to touch her or kiss her all day. I felt so dirty and confused. When she was leaving I hugged her and found my hand wandering down to her bottom. I just had to touch it. She looked at me strangely but did not pull away. I gave her a kiss and it felt wonderful. She thought it was funny and said "your a bit dykey today". I pretended I was kidding around. I am still thinking about her. What the heck is wrong with me? I am scared confused and imbarassed. Am I turning gay at 35 years old? Please explain this to me. I'm ashamed.

 

[AdrianM]

It's a possibility, or maybe your friend is just extremely hot? I'm not sure. Everyone has thoughts about being with the same sex.

 

[timspot5000]

Well, sounds like you are most certainly on your way to becoming a lesbian. I mean really, I would never touch a guys butt and then kiss him. However, women are more prone to express that kind of behavior than men. I would not say it is uncommon for best friends to have special feelings for each other... you just took it to a whole new level, not sure if that makes your gay. I mean back in the greek days of old, male teachers would have sex with their male students. These teachers were not gay, it was just an acceptable thing to do back then. Maybe what you are experincing feels right... not gay. Don't know how else to explain that one. If not, then you are turning lezbo. Oh well, in todays society it is really not a big thing. It's becoming more and more acceptable every year in America. Most people who think or know they are homosexual and just realized it, usually feel like a bad person. Like my room mate, he is 100% gay but refuses to make it obvious because his parents are hard core christians and would probably shun him. Not saying I support homosexuality, I am really indifferent to it. No worries, if you dig women then go for it. I suggest though you find some other girl to goof around with rather than your friend.

EDIT: One way to find out it to find a women you find attractive and attempt to get her in the sack. If you like it, then you will know for sure. If you don't, you never have to tell anyone what you did.