am i choosing to be lonely?

Nick

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i can't figure out why I get a sense of lonelyness and never do anything about it. I only work part time so I have a lot of free hours to do something. I have people to talk to, Gabe, Joel, Sarah, Jess, Blythe. but I never do call or text them. Whenever I do it's like I have to force myself to. I usually wait for them to text me or for them to make a comment on my facebook. I have many opportunities to make plans with friends but I never do. I've never really been all that social. I'm a very quiet and shy person. I guess it just feels like i'm scared of socializing. Whenever I text or call someone it feels like i'm bugging them. Some may think i'm an "outcast" of some sort but i'm not. I'm just like any other 20 year old guy. I wear jeans, t-shirt, somewhat short buzzed hair. an average joe so to speak. Some people have said I have a social phobia of some sort.
Has anyone else been through this?
Is there any way to get over this?
If so, what did you end up doing to get past it? I have health insurance so I can see a therapist.
 
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