Anxious and need to vent about my job!!!?

[justasking1]

Hey everyone, I recently injured my leg at work and now I am home with not much to do. I need to vent about my job, so please don't judge. I have been fighting myself since I received the position as a behavior therapists to quit or not. Every part of my being said stay away and move on. But I gave in and continued to work in a toxic enviroment. I work with autistic children, who I love, but I always felt uncomfortable whether it was the racism I was dealing with or the stress from people who genuinely didn't like me and treated me different. I worked at other environments and never felt this type of hate towards me. What hurt me the most about my job was that I really cared and loved the children and what I was doing. But the year and half that I worked for this company I received two major life changing injuries. I currently have nerve damage to my neck and tore 3 ligaments to my ankle recently. There have been so many signs that I should quit and now that I have been out for at least two months since my injury, I want to quit and just move on with my life. I never was in a position in my life where I was this severally injured and hated on. I received a call from upper management pretty much telling me that I was replaceable. I think this job has hurt me on so many levels that it is pretty much impossible to say something nice.

I am currently 24 years old. A complete sweet heart with absolute pure intentions and I am asking you, how can I move on to the next step since I had such a bad experience with my last job. I have been driving myself mad analyzing if I am overly sensitive to racist comments, trying to understand that not all people out there in this world like even if I never did anything for them to hate me, and question my intention to stay in an abusive environment for money???

I am just beating myself up and not being proactive to find another job. I received a degree in psychology with an emphasis in behavior analysis. I love studying behavior, but since my injuries, I would prefer to stay as far away from being hurt again. Thank you for reading.