somebody123
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yes I seriously mean or before as well.. as at its hard to explain but i once did it without any questions but now I can't even dream of it before at LEAST 3:30 and even then I try to wait til 4am the I'm in the anxiety clear. what kind of job can I get with such a hardwired nervousnes? ok I can technically go to bed before 3am but it has to be WELL before 3am like 10pm and well I just cant; do that! its terribly early to me and my brain just doesn't shut off anytime before at least 1 which is too close to 3 
ok I saw that movie. excorcism of emily rose.. that seeded it but I got over it eventually.. then had a dream where I was stuck in a dream that felt like RL literally it had physics and gravity(strong gravity) I was in a sort of after hours warehouse like place but no shelves at all and wasn't dark just few lights on. NO ONE but me in it at all. felt like 1am or so in the dream .. I KNEW I was asleep and was like ok I'm going to try and wake up now.. but I felt unable to wake up so I got worried and decided to reach myself by touching the cieling somehow by kicking off the side wall and somehow jumping up(thinking it was a dream) but all that happened was a whump(against the wall)and a thud(to the ground) not even a second of suspended in air,, tried this about 15 times then felt it was as in vain as trying it in RL so sat and closed my eyes and thought Wake up WAKE UP WAKE UP about 30 times then suddenly felt unblocked and reached my body and it all went pitch black.. then I felt my eyelids fluttering and then before they opened I could see my room as if I was laying down in my bed still and saw this tshirt filled seemingly by a body but no body visible no head either but a blue glow to it like a 3d holographic machine was projecting it but no beam from any projector.. then when I realized what I was looking at --it floated off slowly but in a hurry like then disappeared into my clothing pile beside me bed.. and when its last molecule was out of sight my eyes suddenly snapped open and I saw my room except it was dark again(not weirdly just bright enough to see)then leapt for my light after laying there in shock for a good 15 seconds.. I coudl totally move from opening my eyes but was like uhh.. should I be scared.. HAHA omg.. AHH it was a ghost.. GO FOR LIGHT ok then thought about it later (looked at my clock and it was just turning 4 am)ever since I can't seem to consciously go to bed at 3am on the dot or just before or just after it
ok I saw that movie. excorcism of emily rose.. that seeded it but I got over it eventually.. then had a dream where I was stuck in a dream that felt like RL literally it had physics and gravity(strong gravity) I was in a sort of after hours warehouse like place but no shelves at all and wasn't dark just few lights on. NO ONE but me in it at all. felt like 1am or so in the dream .. I KNEW I was asleep and was like ok I'm going to try and wake up now.. but I felt unable to wake up so I got worried and decided to reach myself by touching the cieling somehow by kicking off the side wall and somehow jumping up(thinking it was a dream) but all that happened was a whump(against the wall)and a thud(to the ground) not even a second of suspended in air,, tried this about 15 times then felt it was as in vain as trying it in RL so sat and closed my eyes and thought Wake up WAKE UP WAKE UP about 30 times then suddenly felt unblocked and reached my body and it all went pitch black.. then I felt my eyelids fluttering and then before they opened I could see my room as if I was laying down in my bed still and saw this tshirt filled seemingly by a body but no body visible no head either but a blue glow to it like a 3d holographic machine was projecting it but no beam from any projector.. then when I realized what I was looking at --it floated off slowly but in a hurry like then disappeared into my clothing pile beside me bed.. and when its last molecule was out of sight my eyes suddenly snapped open and I saw my room except it was dark again(not weirdly just bright enough to see)then leapt for my light after laying there in shock for a good 15 seconds.. I coudl totally move from opening my eyes but was like uhh.. should I be scared.. HAHA omg.. AHH it was a ghost.. GO FOR LIGHT ok then thought about it later (looked at my clock and it was just turning 4 am)ever since I can't seem to consciously go to bed at 3am on the dot or just before or just after it