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chocseth
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Like , every night or on my week offs i have urge to masturbate , although i have no intetion of having sex or i dont even fantcise any women or men for matter ....!! i just read some sex stories or watch some mp3 clips on my fone and then jerk off and then sleep.. i feel so peverted by my act.
I dont kno if there is somthin really wrong i dont fantcise about women or even the thought of me having sex to jerk of ,, its only the internet porn or the stories which i m addicted to !!
well this been goin on for almost 5 or more years i guess ... i even thought that i was gay , dated guys too n felt awkward about making out with a guy , then i thought it was emotinal blockage and tried speaking it out to my gay frns but they didnt get it all they wanted was sex which i wasnt ready . although i wanted to be their friend , they didnt wanted to... i slowly lost em all. These days i m all by myself . At work i never get along with any of these females almost every one is elder to me .... I ve been fighting all this for years now and still doin it.
I have visted almost 8-10 councellors but no changes they simply dont understand..
Now i have decided to help myself no matter how long it takes. but at times i loose hope.
Anyone go through or goin thru this phase , tell me how ur copin with urself ?
I dont kno if there is somthin really wrong i dont fantcise about women or even the thought of me having sex to jerk of ,, its only the internet porn or the stories which i m addicted to !!
well this been goin on for almost 5 or more years i guess ... i even thought that i was gay , dated guys too n felt awkward about making out with a guy , then i thought it was emotinal blockage and tried speaking it out to my gay frns but they didnt get it all they wanted was sex which i wasnt ready . although i wanted to be their friend , they didnt wanted to... i slowly lost em all. These days i m all by myself . At work i never get along with any of these females almost every one is elder to me .... I ve been fighting all this for years now and still doin it.
I have visted almost 8-10 councellors but no changes they simply dont understand..
Now i have decided to help myself no matter how long it takes. but at times i loose hope.
Anyone go through or goin thru this phase , tell me how ur copin with urself ?