chronic depression with a relationship?

[SamaraAmora]

i really have been trying to find a right answer. I feel like i have chronic disorder..ive been in and out of depression since i was very young. lack of sleep. not eating much. When i date it really gets in the way because my feeling get changed and i cant have a clear thought. Its like i lost how i was with that person all of a sudden, wich currently is happening. Im barely going to go back to reg school and i barely mentioned my problems with my parents so im going to a phyciatrist. I feel the worstest than i ever have. i lost so much weight in a short period of time. I try to get my mind rite but its dfficult, i start to break down and cry. This is hurting my relationship, ive done it before and went back because i felt confused about what i was feeling. then its happening again. Should i take a break and try to work on myself being happy so i dont hurt my bf? we were close to breaking up..well still am..hes letting me get a chance to think..he doesnt understand how i feel and i dnt think he knows what chronic depression is like.