I'm 19 years old and I think I'm a lesbian. For the past year I have been increasingly interested in girls even though I used to consider myself straight previously. I have almost completely lost interest in guys and want to be in a relationship with a girl. I get this funny but amazing feeling when i imagine what it would be like to be with and in love with another girl.
The problem is... I have no way of exlporing this. I have never been in a realtionship before which makes me much more insecure about dating. I feel as though I am uncapable of forming that type of connection with another person... and to add homosexuality into the whole thing makes it alot harder. I am fine with being gay.. infact I love gay culture and am obsessed with all things lesbian.. but.. I have no lesbian friends... I have class during the my university's QSU(queer student union) meetings... and I am too young to go to clubs or gay bars.
My entire life feels as though I am always in the wrong place at the wrong time.. I thought that once I found a different path to take that I think is the right one for me that doors would open, but.. so far nothing has opened up. I'm not looking to jump tino a lesbian relationship right away since im probably not even ready, but even just finding friends who know what I'm going through would be extremely helpful. It's really not something I can talk to my straight friends about.
I hate being in this confusing curious state of my sexuality thinking im a lesbian but not being able to do anything about it. Has anyone else felt this way? How did you develope a community? When you frist came out, how were you able to find others like you?
The problem is... I have no way of exlporing this. I have never been in a realtionship before which makes me much more insecure about dating. I feel as though I am uncapable of forming that type of connection with another person... and to add homosexuality into the whole thing makes it alot harder. I am fine with being gay.. infact I love gay culture and am obsessed with all things lesbian.. but.. I have no lesbian friends... I have class during the my university's QSU(queer student union) meetings... and I am too young to go to clubs or gay bars.
My entire life feels as though I am always in the wrong place at the wrong time.. I thought that once I found a different path to take that I think is the right one for me that doors would open, but.. so far nothing has opened up. I'm not looking to jump tino a lesbian relationship right away since im probably not even ready, but even just finding friends who know what I'm going through would be extremely helpful. It's really not something I can talk to my straight friends about.
I hate being in this confusing curious state of my sexuality thinking im a lesbian but not being able to do anything about it. Has anyone else felt this way? How did you develope a community? When you frist came out, how were you able to find others like you?