ColoradoBoy20
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- Feb 26, 2009
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Okay, now I DON'T want to have any "disorder" and am not looking for attention and act cool because i have a "mental disorder". So please don't say that. I've been to 4 doctors over the past year, along with a psychiatrist. They almost all diagnosed me with something different, so I don't know what to believe. I've been told: Anxiety. Depression. OCD. Bi-polar. Possible borderline. Every doc says something different. I really just want to know what's wrong. Maybe someone here could give me at least their opionion after reading my story.
I'll try to explain it the best I can... I tend to get EXTREMELY attached to people (anyone I find attractive and we spend time together, that is, if they show any interest toward me). Sometimes even after 1 day. When I was dating someone, I need a phone call every-day to be re-assured. Everytime I got that phonecall, my mood would INSTANTLY become great - happy, hyper, etc. When I didn't get a phone call I'd get sad, I'd cry, feel abandonded, and feel like "it must be over". Just from not getting ONE phone call or text back. I even quit my job and school, because on the days I didn't get a phone call I'd become so depressed, that I didn't even want to go to work that day - causing me to always get fired from my jobs. I'd always look at their postive traits and never the negatives - I just become too attached to them and the thought of being left alone without them would always scare me and literally make me cry. I'd even buy stuff just to be able to see them.... i'd drive hours if I had to, just to be able to see them too.
My emotions just overwhelm me most of the time. I can't stand how I'll be happy, jumping up and down one minute after getting a phone call, then if I don't get phone call again later that day, or the next day, I'll fall back down into that "extremely sad, depressed, hopeless mood" thinking the worst - that they don't care about me anymore, etc.
I'll try to explain it the best I can... I tend to get EXTREMELY attached to people (anyone I find attractive and we spend time together, that is, if they show any interest toward me). Sometimes even after 1 day. When I was dating someone, I need a phone call every-day to be re-assured. Everytime I got that phonecall, my mood would INSTANTLY become great - happy, hyper, etc. When I didn't get a phone call I'd get sad, I'd cry, feel abandonded, and feel like "it must be over". Just from not getting ONE phone call or text back. I even quit my job and school, because on the days I didn't get a phone call I'd become so depressed, that I didn't even want to go to work that day - causing me to always get fired from my jobs. I'd always look at their postive traits and never the negatives - I just become too attached to them and the thought of being left alone without them would always scare me and literally make me cry. I'd even buy stuff just to be able to see them.... i'd drive hours if I had to, just to be able to see them too.
My emotions just overwhelm me most of the time. I can't stand how I'll be happy, jumping up and down one minute after getting a phone call, then if I don't get phone call again later that day, or the next day, I'll fall back down into that "extremely sad, depressed, hopeless mood" thinking the worst - that they don't care about me anymore, etc.