I am going to a synogouge and I am so inspired by Jewish Culture and rituals , I still believe that Jesus was the jewish messiah and therefore I am not going to ask the rabbi to put me in a conversion process , he has told be that in order to live fully like a jew , I dont have to officially convert to judaism and i am more than welcome to come to synogouge ad participate in any event there , but if i officially convert to orthodox to judaism , Based on Christian theology , am i going to lose my salvation in after life and i will be no longer a christian?