i was diagnosed with Borderline Personality Disorder nearly 7 years ago, and had classic symptoms- a very typical case. Yet recently i have been having other symptoms that haven't had before- i keep believing that everyone is looking at me and talking about me negatively, and if i overhear something from someone in public or with friends i often think it is a reference to me. Most of the things i think they think or say are bad. i struggle with low self-esteem. What's wrong with me? am afraid to talk to my CPN or Psych in case they put me back on anti-psychotics again- i was on them before for being agitated, hearing my thoughts spoken aloud (again my own bad thoughts about myself) and self-harming. Although i always had BPD, i did have a very bad depressive breakdown 3 years ago- i couldn't work or interact normally for 6 months and i had feeling that peopel could read my thoughts. i also suffer OCD and anxiety/panic.