...don't know about? So over the past three years I've had two, both very wonderful, women come through my life. One of which I met three years ago and developed feelings for. For referential purposes let's call her Girl A even though she's been so much more in my life. After asking her out, I realized I could not get her out of my head. After some time I fell in love with her, but then discovered she had found a boyfriend since I had asked her out. Over the next few months I sought spiritual guidance and developed a much stronger relationship with God, and eventually thought it wise to just stop holding onto emotions. After foolishly asking her friend that my (somewhat asshole) friends knew via text, she said no and was razzed a little over it by my friends. I apologized to the friend, and Girl A called me to let me know it was sweet. A few months later Girl A and I began texting one another quite a bit, though she still held onto her boyfriend, the heart wants what the heart wants, and it wanted her again. Around October (and a little over a year since I had asked her out) she confided in me that her relationship with her boyfriend was steadily deteriorating. She herself in tears, asked me for advice, and I told her that she could still rekindle her relationship with him. She wound up holding out, but after a few weeks ended the relationship. Over the course of the next few months, despite my attempts to speak with her, we had fewer and fewer conversations until March when it came to a virtual halt as I prepared to ask her out again. It was April before I was finally able to do so, and once again, was rejected. We talked less for awhile, until around July when we ha a deep conversation again, in which I discussed a mysterious and misunderstood friend of mine, who was really me. We haven't exchanged more than a few words since then.
In August I prepared for another school year worth of disappointment, put off by a week with one thing that could never get me down, playing the Sousaphone in marching band. With Girl A at the back of my mind, I met an energetic, kind, beautiful, older flutist, or Girl B. Quickly realizing the high emotional damage I had done to myself over Girl A, I pushed her out of my mind and began feelings for Girl B. In the past six months I've grown to know her better, but between a lack of strength and obstacles (or excuses), I have yet to. This whole time though, Girl A seems to be around every corner, constant reminders of her popping up.
Is my postponing of asking out Girl B due to feelings I might still have for Girl A? What's the best way just to get on with my life and totally forget Girl A?
Second time I asked Girl A out, she said she still was hurting after she and her boyfriend broke up.
In August I prepared for another school year worth of disappointment, put off by a week with one thing that could never get me down, playing the Sousaphone in marching band. With Girl A at the back of my mind, I met an energetic, kind, beautiful, older flutist, or Girl B. Quickly realizing the high emotional damage I had done to myself over Girl A, I pushed her out of my mind and began feelings for Girl B. In the past six months I've grown to know her better, but between a lack of strength and obstacles (or excuses), I have yet to. This whole time though, Girl A seems to be around every corner, constant reminders of her popping up.
Is my postponing of asking out Girl B due to feelings I might still have for Girl A? What's the best way just to get on with my life and totally forget Girl A?
Second time I asked Girl A out, she said she still was hurting after she and her boyfriend broke up.