Greyicongirlt]
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- Feb 10, 2009
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Ok, well, I'm a chancer....I'm definitely crazy, I've been this way my whole life and I don't fear many things, which is great! But....Things never go the way I want them to when I do take risks. For example: I'm a lesbian and I fell in love with my best friend, without even thinking straight or asking or trying to find out I just thought what the hey if she's not a lesbian she's my best mate and she'll be nice to me. So I tol her I loved her and got horribly rejected and this was March last year, it took us until November to sort things out. So, yeah and there's been worse! I've had terrible experiences with being a lesbian by now and I only found out last year! But now I'm taking my last chance and I'm sending a love letter to this girl who I don't even know's locker!..I don't know her sexuality and I only found out her name the other day. I'm crazy right? But she's famous in my school, she's in a band. She's my perfect girl even in the way she looks. She seems really nice and polite and everyone seems to just love her.
Well, anyway, I noticed earlier in the year these looks she was giving me. All her attention was on me! Everytime she saw me she'd stare at me and sometimes give me...yeno..bed-eyes...
and special glances and really happy looking smiles that didn't fade. So I got a bit freaked out (She's in the year below me and I don't know her.) And I made it obvious, I think, I duno I just remember being freaked out and it must've shown in my body langauge because she stopped all of a sudden (she did it a lot). Anyway then I realized I liked her after I fell over in front of her, everyone laughed excpet for her. She helped me up and asked me was I okay, she was so nice and charming. So, I got my friend to watch her since then and my friend says she lights up when she sees me, she smiles and stares and straightens up and tries to act cool when I'm around. This idiot of a friend is my closest idiot best friend and if it wasn't for her I wouldn't have told my rejecting best friend that I loved her...So why should I believe her? I watched the girl myself and there was a talent show yesterday. She sang "could it be magic" and looked at me the whole time she was singing. Wow...It was great so I'm thinking of believing my friend. But for the first time I'm having doubts. Even though I've seen all this should I really send her a love letter with a way to contact me and leave it in her locker?
Should I really even though I don't know her and I don't even know if she likes girls? xx
Well, anyway, I noticed earlier in the year these looks she was giving me. All her attention was on me! Everytime she saw me she'd stare at me and sometimes give me...yeno..bed-eyes...
and special glances and really happy looking smiles that didn't fade. So I got a bit freaked out (She's in the year below me and I don't know her.) And I made it obvious, I think, I duno I just remember being freaked out and it must've shown in my body langauge because she stopped all of a sudden (she did it a lot). Anyway then I realized I liked her after I fell over in front of her, everyone laughed excpet for her. She helped me up and asked me was I okay, she was so nice and charming. So, I got my friend to watch her since then and my friend says she lights up when she sees me, she smiles and stares and straightens up and tries to act cool when I'm around. This idiot of a friend is my closest idiot best friend and if it wasn't for her I wouldn't have told my rejecting best friend that I loved her...So why should I believe her? I watched the girl myself and there was a talent show yesterday. She sang "could it be magic" and looked at me the whole time she was singing. Wow...It was great so I'm thinking of believing my friend. But for the first time I'm having doubts. Even though I've seen all this should I really send her a love letter with a way to contact me and leave it in her locker?Should I really even though I don't know her and I don't even know if she likes girls? xx