My boyfriend and I have been in a relationship for a little over a year. We've been good friends for about 4 and half years now. We love each other very much and plan to get married someday and have a family.
But I have a problem. I've very insecure and a very anxious person. I have an eating disorder in which I either don't eat much or throw up what I eat, (haven't thrown up in a while) so I have a very poor self-image. I hate my body, but my boyfriend says it's beautiful and he loves it.
My problem is when it comes to movies and showing naked women. I know it's ridiculous and immature and for a 21 year old like myself, I shouldn't let this get to me, but it does. When we were just friends he talked about how he loved boobs, especially big ones... I'm a b-cup...>.>
So, yeah, I get really insecure and jealous when it shows women sexually/naked in movies. This has caused many problems and he's told me time and time again that he doesn't want those women, he loves me, but to me it's more than that. I feel really jealous like they look better to him or something. It makes me really anxious to watch movies with him for fear of it showing women like that. I even check the ratings on everything.. I know, I'm stupid.
We are supposed to watch Jackass 3 soon, and yes I hear it has tons of male nudity. I've asked him over and over if he'll be okay with me/us watching it and he says it will be fine. I'm worried about if there are naked women in it... >.>
What can I do to stop this? I plan to spend the rest of my life with him, but I'm so scared I'll get all fat and unattractive and/or that he'll get tired of my body and want to look at other women. He's so respectful and usually looks away at scenes like that, and I appreciate it, but I don't want to be immature about it. What can I do? Thank you.
But I have a problem. I've very insecure and a very anxious person. I have an eating disorder in which I either don't eat much or throw up what I eat, (haven't thrown up in a while) so I have a very poor self-image. I hate my body, but my boyfriend says it's beautiful and he loves it.
My problem is when it comes to movies and showing naked women. I know it's ridiculous and immature and for a 21 year old like myself, I shouldn't let this get to me, but it does. When we were just friends he talked about how he loved boobs, especially big ones... I'm a b-cup...>.>
So, yeah, I get really insecure and jealous when it shows women sexually/naked in movies. This has caused many problems and he's told me time and time again that he doesn't want those women, he loves me, but to me it's more than that. I feel really jealous like they look better to him or something. It makes me really anxious to watch movies with him for fear of it showing women like that. I even check the ratings on everything.. I know, I'm stupid.
We are supposed to watch Jackass 3 soon, and yes I hear it has tons of male nudity. I've asked him over and over if he'll be okay with me/us watching it and he says it will be fine. I'm worried about if there are naked women in it... >.>
What can I do to stop this? I plan to spend the rest of my life with him, but I'm so scared I'll get all fat and unattractive and/or that he'll get tired of my body and want to look at other women. He's so respectful and usually looks away at scenes like that, and I appreciate it, but I don't want to be immature about it. What can I do? Thank you.