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<blockquote data-quote="chocolatett" data-source="post: 2274720" data-attributes="member: 794350">Hi, everyone. Umm, let me just start with telling you guys that I was saved three weeks ago. Ever since then, my life has been truly different. I was saved from four demons that inhabited my body (the Spirit of lust, suicide, Satan himself, and death) and I was able to sense very evil spirits all around me and I could spiritually see them almost with my eyes. Now, in my bedroom, I see very odd, odd things. Like twisted, glaring faces and I could just...hear things speaking in my head. The reason why I think the Devil&#039;s mad and is showing me these faces because I was so deeply routed in evil and basked in it. I was literally possessed and always thought lustful, purely sick thoughts about MOST of the people around me and I was suicidal and was obsessed with demons. When I say that I was obsessed with demons, I mean I was truly OBSESSED with being around evil things and I even provoked most of the people around me to do evil things. So anyways, the spirit of lust has been truly battling me in my bedroom. In my head, there&#039;s always a voice saying, &quot;Do it, do it, do it, do it. You need to feel this. Do it just once.&quot; So I&#039;ve tried changing the atmosphere by using prayer and singing gospel and forcing the spirits by name to leave. (I&#039;ve been able to fully recognize them)And sometimes I would give in.That would always hurt me and I would try to pray and ask for God&#039;s forgiveness and I truly understand that I was a sinner...but I find myself feeling hateful and just not light and airy&nbsp; felt three weeks ago that fateful night I was saved. I know I have to claim my victory in the name of Jesus and stand up for our Righteous King, but for some reason, it&#039;s SO easy for me to regress in my ways. I feel as if God&#039;s calling me to fulfill his will but for some reason I just CAN&#039;T hear what his voice is saying. His voice is muted and buried in all this sin and fornication. And trust me, God is a little angry with me. When I&#039;ve sinned before, I was just touched with this pure love and warmth and the Holy Spirit touched me so wholly and spoke through me, saying what it needed to say and there was this divine light that I saw...but now...I don&#039;t see that and I think Jesus is starting to take the Holy Spirit away from me.I was reading Psalm 51 aloud but I didn&#039;t feel forgiven. (Sinner&#039;s Prayer)But my Father knows that I love him so very so and I try my hardest to walk in the eyes of Him but it&#039;s so hard...but in the name of Jesus, I&#039;m going to claim my victory at the end.It&#039;s all for the glory of God, but I&#039;m sorry this is so very long!!! <img src="https://cdn.jsdelivr.net/joypixels/assets/8.0/png/unicode/64/1f600.png" class="smilie smilie--emoji" loading="lazy" width="64" height="64" alt=":D" title="Big grin&nbsp; &nbsp; :D"&nbsp; data-smilie="8"data-shortname=":D" />But please, guys, is there any words of&nbsp; advice, Christians? If I don&#039;t have the Lord in my life, I don&#039;t know what I&#039;m living for anymore. I truly noticed that it was HIM that always found a way to keep me alive and not fall COMPLETELY into the devil&#039;s hands.In the name of Jesus, the devil is a liar and a deceiver and a JOKE.So please, any words of advice? Anyone have helpful passages to use? Can you please keep me in your prayers? Pray for my salvation and to be deeply routed in God (Just pray for Tara)Thanks for reading, my siblings in Christ.</blockquote>

[QUOTE="chocolatett, post: 2274720, member: 794350"] Hi, everyone. Umm, let me just start with telling you guys that I was saved three weeks ago. Ever since then, my life has been truly different. I was saved from four demons that inhabited my body (the Spirit of lust, suicide, Satan himself, and death) and I was able to sense very evil spirits all around me and I could spiritually see them almost with my eyes. Now, in my bedroom, I see very odd, odd things. Like twisted, glaring faces and I could just...hear things speaking in my head. The reason why I think the Devil's mad and is showing me these faces because I was so deeply routed in evil and basked in it. I was literally possessed and always thought lustful, purely sick thoughts about MOST of the people around me and I was suicidal and was obsessed with demons. When I say that I was obsessed with demons, I mean I was truly OBSESSED with being around evil things and I even provoked most of the people around me to do evil things. So anyways, the spirit of lust has been truly battling me in my bedroom. In my head, there's always a voice saying, "Do it, do it, do it, do it. You need to feel this. Do it just once." So I've tried changing the atmosphere by using prayer and singing gospel and forcing the spirits by name to leave. (I've been able to fully recognize them) And sometimes I would give in. That would always hurt me and I would try to pray and ask for God's forgiveness and I truly understand that I was a sinner...but I find myself feeling hateful and just not light and airy felt three weeks ago that fateful night I was saved. I know I have to claim my victory in the name of Jesus and stand up for our Righteous King, but for some reason, it's SO easy for me to regress in my ways. I feel as if God's calling me to fulfill his will but for some reason I just CAN'T hear what his voice is saying. His voice is muted and buried in all this sin and fornication. And trust me, God is a little angry with me. When I've sinned before, I was just touched with this pure love and warmth and the Holy Spirit touched me so wholly and spoke through me, saying what it needed to say and there was this divine light that I saw...but now...I don't see that and I think Jesus is starting to take the Holy Spirit away from me. I was reading Psalm 51 aloud but I didn't feel forgiven. (Sinner's Prayer) But my Father knows that I love him so very so and I try my hardest to walk in the eyes of Him but it's so hard...but in the name of Jesus, I'm going to claim my victory at the end. It's all for the glory of God, but I'm sorry this is so very long!!! :D But please, guys, is there any words of advice, Christians? If I don't have the Lord in my life, I don't know what I'm living for anymore. I truly noticed that it was HIM that always found a way to keep me alive and not fall COMPLETELY into the devil's hands. In the name of Jesus, the devil is a liar and a deceiver and a JOKE. So please, any words of advice? Anyone have helpful passages to use? Can you please keep me in your prayers? Pray for my salvation and to be deeply routed in God (Just pray for Tara) Thanks for reading, my siblings in Christ. [/QUOTE]

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