how do i gain self respect?

michellea1

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im an adult and live with my parents because i got hurt and cant walk well and have pain andd i cant do alot of things since i was hurt.i was in college. my parents scream and control me and act harsh .i cant stand up for myself no matter how much i try or tell them to back off it dosnt work. they are verbaLLY Abusive and put me through things. i gett threatened and yelled at by them daily. im very nervous cause of this. im a religous person so maybe they are acting like this cause of the devil,not sure
they also hit me in the past and beat me a few years ago.they want me to be sad aND WORRIEDD ane never be sucessful, they want me on the street instead of taking care of my health, my father dosnt want me going to college, he dosnt want me working or getting married. he planned a life for me and no matter how much i oppose it it dosnt work,. he does alot to make sure it dosnt happen and ruin things.he did alot to make sure i didnt go back to college, he cursed me also. he told me to die.

theres no reasoning with these people they are tough big people. im over 18 but young still and i cant stand up to them,im still terrified of them. i yell at them and try to do stuff my way thats good for me.like work on going back to school and they stop me. they are the toughest parents there are. its very hard for me to stand up to them, even older adults are scared of them,they are taller and bigger weigh like 3 times what i do.and physically scary and also they are tough and stubborn and must have their way even if its hurting people./except they dont know what theyre doing, they want to mess up my life and comp0lain about it.they are like blind taxi drivers taking people for a ride off a cliff.they want others to go down with them. because they are overweight horrible people who abuse people to feel better about themself.well they are naracsistic so they always feel good about thenmself. and if you dont bend over backwards and worship them then they go nuts and get even with you.they want what they want when they want nowww! and if its not done their way you pay.

they do everything to get even and have no compassion for others they are psychopaths.

i feel worthless and i live in pain all day, daily

my father is giving me alot of trouble, he goes to court against me.im in the middle of a health crises and found out i have heart problems and might die. im very scared and trying to sort this out and take care of my health and recuperate and in the middle of this he fights with me and expects me to get to a court building to fight with him over lies. i dont have time for this, life is short im young and should be hanging out with friends and starting a career but im disabled and have health crisises so its very not fair. so i have enough to worry about, i dont have time to entertain an abuser... he scares me and intimidates me
 
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