HighContrast
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I'm not a drug addict, as in I'm not physically dependent on drugs, but in many ways I feel I've become almost psychologically dependent on them. I don't think I'm at the point where I need to enter rehab or anything, but I really don't want it to get to that. Usually during the school week I'll buy adderall to crush up and snort and have gotten to the point where I feel like I can't get through the school day without it, then after school I'll do more adderall (or any kind of prescription uppers) and smoke weed, and then on the weekends I'll drink, take pain pills or anti-anxiety medications (such as vicodin, oxycontin, xanax, valium etc.), or do cocaine or ecstasy on occasion. Physically I would do fine without these things (as I have before) but I've come to terms with the fact that doing all these drugs all the time is a problem and is effecting my mood and health severely. The problem is I don't really know how to not do drugs as they're something that have become a normal, regular fixture in my life at this point. I just really want to not feel so dependent on them for "fun" or when I don't know how to cope, without having to enter some kind of rehab program. I'm already in therapy right now and am about to be prescribed anti-depressants but I'm afraid these things won't be enough.