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<blockquote data-quote="sandram" data-source="post: 1503243" data-attributes="member: 247665">When I was about 6 or 7 my older brother who was probably 11 or 12 at the time started playing sexual games with me. He would touch me and&nbsp; convince me to orally please him or he would do it to me. Sometimes he would have play sex with me. He never penetrated me but this behavior continued for a few years. I did not know that this behavior was wrong at the time, and because of that I brought some of these games over to my cousins house. She was a few years younger then me and the touching games we would play were not as bad as what my brother had me play with him.This behavior with my brother continued for quite a few years until I finally realized it was wrong. I was around 8 when the games stopped. I was terrified to tell my parents because I didn&#039;t want it to tear up the family. My brother stopped playing games but continued to prey on me. I would catch him outside my window watching me get dressed and he would sneak into my room late at night and touch me while I slept. He would wake me up by touching me and I felt like I couldn&#039;t do anything about it. If I screamed then I would have to explain to my parents what was going on. This happened at least 2 times a week until I was the age of 11. My brother was around the age of 14 or 15. The molestation finally stopped and I put the whole situation behind me. I buried the truth deep inside me and didn&#039;t think about again.Now I am 23 and I have been forced to confront it. I am embarrassed and ashamed. I feel horrible for what I did to my own cousin because I didn&#039;t know it was wrong. I am not even sure if she remembers it so I can&#039;t bring it up to her. She was very very young at the time and like I said it was way more innocent. My boyfriend knows the secret but he doesn&#039;t know any of the details. He is disgusted with my brother and I am afraid its affecting our relationship. I am not sure what steps to take to begin to get over it. I can not tell my mother because it would literally kill her. I am afraid to confront my brother because he was young too and I think he is also very ashamed. Does anyone else have a similar situation? Need some advise on how to cope with this.</blockquote>

[QUOTE="sandram, post: 1503243, member: 247665"] When I was about 6 or 7 my older brother who was probably 11 or 12 at the time started playing sexual games with me. He would touch me and convince me to orally please him or he would do it to me. Sometimes he would have play sex with me. He never penetrated me but this behavior continued for a few years. I did not know that this behavior was wrong at the time, and because of that I brought some of these games over to my cousins house. She was a few years younger then me and the touching games we would play were not as bad as what my brother had me play with him. This behavior with my brother continued for quite a few years until I finally realized it was wrong. I was around 8 when the games stopped. I was terrified to tell my parents because I didn't want it to tear up the family. My brother stopped playing games but continued to prey on me. I would catch him outside my window watching me get dressed and he would sneak into my room late at night and touch me while I slept. He would wake me up by touching me and I felt like I couldn't do anything about it. If I screamed then I would have to explain to my parents what was going on. This happened at least 2 times a week until I was the age of 11. My brother was around the age of 14 or 15. The molestation finally stopped and I put the whole situation behind me. I buried the truth deep inside me and didn't think about again. Now I am 23 and I have been forced to confront it. I am embarrassed and ashamed. I feel horrible for what I did to my own cousin because I didn't know it was wrong. I am not even sure if she remembers it so I can't bring it up to her. She was very very young at the time and like I said it was way more innocent. My boyfriend knows the secret but he doesn't know any of the details. He is disgusted with my brother and I am afraid its affecting our relationship. I am not sure what steps to take to begin to get over it. I can not tell my mother because it would literally kill her. I am afraid to confront my brother because he was young too and I think he is also very ashamed. Does anyone else have a similar situation? Need some advise on how to cope with this. [/QUOTE]

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