Every day almost like the whole day i always think about basketball. Every morning i think about basketball. I wake up, thinking that i should practice if i want it to make it to varsity next year. If i got cut 2 times then i gotta step it up and stop doing retartded things. For some reason when i wake up, i dont feel like practicing even tho im thinking about it. Then in the night in night times i hate myself for what im doing. I GOT TO STOP. BUT I CANT. I try everything to motivated myself but nothing is working. I think about practice and basketball everyday BUT IM NOT F***** doin it.