Ever since I was about 10 years old, I have been scared to death of throwing up.
So much so that I won't eat a full meal, I can't eat out in restaurants since the fear I may throw up is so bad, that I start to feel sick just from stressing.
I won't eat any food that I know in my mind would 'look' horrible to throw up (it makes more sense in my head I guess), and I won't eat foods with certain aromas...or anything with 'chunks'.
I won't leave the house if I have just eaten, because I'm scared I will throw it up in the car, or in public.
This fear is getting so bad I think it is starting to hinder my relationship with my partner. We both love eachother very much, but it is very easy to see that me saying 'I feel sick' everyday is starting to take its toll, and annoy him (and I dont blame him, getting me out of the house is a very big and frustrating struggle)
I don't know whether my 'sick' feeling every day is my fear, or if it really is some underlying medical issues, although I have been tested for a lot of things, that I am onto my 3rd doctor, in hopes that even if something is not medically wrong, they can offer help in the way of psycoholigst or something.
I've been meaning to ask this question for a while, but seeing as though I have some sort of virus now, I really could throw up sometime today, and I honestly would rather be dead , than vomit.
That sounds so pathetic, and emo, but I really cannot help it.
I need help with it, and I don't know where to go, or what will help.
I live in Australia, so our resources are not as abundant as in the U.S
Please help, I want my life back
I posted this in the wrong section, I'm sorry.
I'm going to post it in another section related to mental health..I really am desperate for help.
But I thought I should mention I am now 20.
So much so that I won't eat a full meal, I can't eat out in restaurants since the fear I may throw up is so bad, that I start to feel sick just from stressing.
I won't eat any food that I know in my mind would 'look' horrible to throw up (it makes more sense in my head I guess), and I won't eat foods with certain aromas...or anything with 'chunks'.
I won't leave the house if I have just eaten, because I'm scared I will throw it up in the car, or in public.
This fear is getting so bad I think it is starting to hinder my relationship with my partner. We both love eachother very much, but it is very easy to see that me saying 'I feel sick' everyday is starting to take its toll, and annoy him (and I dont blame him, getting me out of the house is a very big and frustrating struggle)
I don't know whether my 'sick' feeling every day is my fear, or if it really is some underlying medical issues, although I have been tested for a lot of things, that I am onto my 3rd doctor, in hopes that even if something is not medically wrong, they can offer help in the way of psycoholigst or something.
I've been meaning to ask this question for a while, but seeing as though I have some sort of virus now, I really could throw up sometime today, and I honestly would rather be dead , than vomit.
That sounds so pathetic, and emo, but I really cannot help it.
I need help with it, and I don't know where to go, or what will help.
I live in Australia, so our resources are not as abundant as in the U.S
Please help, I want my life back
I posted this in the wrong section, I'm sorry.
I'm going to post it in another section related to mental health..I really am desperate for help.
But I thought I should mention I am now 20.