Jesus died on the cross for your salvation and forgiveness of sin. We will mess up, that's why we have Jesus, he is patient, loving, kind and forgiving. Do not let evil stop you. Keep on trucking.
When you live for the zest of life and want to make full use of it, your life will be changed or transformed. Treat each day as a gift, and everything in between as bonuses and you will love life so much that you always want to do more (work or play).