I'm 18 years old, and moved in with my father - the only "responsible" (if you would call it that) family I have left - last year. He lives in an apartment alone and is retired, so I have to pay him $100 a month for groceries. I am finishing my high school credits and was hoping to move out by September 2010, although he is pushing for sooner. He has made it abundently clear that soon after I move out, he is moving up north into a one bedroom apartment so neither me or my sister can move in with him, which erases any fallback plan if surviving on my own fails. (My dad had nothing to do with me or my sister until we were in our mid teens and were too busy for him, so our mother's biggest threat was "sending us to live with our father", hence why it's weird for him to have a daughter pop into his life and stick around for a while.. although he's succeeding fairly well at putting up with me).
Anyway, when I moved out I was planning on heading to PEI (I live in Ontario now), as it's very rural and historical, a place I feel most comfortable. Taxes are expensive but cost of living is cheap. The only downside is that I don't know anyone there.
So a friend (with a husband and kids) is moving to Saskatchewan next year and is trying to persuade me to come with, as cost of living is low out west as well, but there are "many more job oppurtunities". The thing is, while it's safer financially to head that way, I don't want to go. Although my personality has a "follow your heart and you'll find where you belong" mindset, I base decisions on reason and the reason side of me says head to SK, even though my heart knows I won't be happy there. So this is how I see things going if I move to SK (which seems like the only option at this time), since I can't afford to further my education past high school:
I move out there, get a job I hate making a low (-but-higher-than-minimum) wage, and save for 10 years, move to PEI and open my business (pub or bed and breakfast). The negatives about this option is that I'll hate my job, have no life, and waste my young years working away... Which when I listen to my heart, is not what I want life to be about.
And my other option, is working at a job I like, making a low wage and travelling to different destinations once a year, which is more me following my heart, but I'll never have financial security and probably won't ever leave SK.
Can someone convince me there are reasons other than because I feel I belong in PEI, to move there? There shouldn't have to be any other reason, right? If I want to go, I should. But as much as my heart is telling my head that, I can't convince myself it's the logical thing to do.
I think I need reassurance, that it's okay to move somewhere because you want to, and that it's okay to not be making a bunch of money a year because you're doing something you love...
I've always wanted to be a writer, and am often told that I should be but my "skills" come and go with my mood... GAH.
Anyway, when I moved out I was planning on heading to PEI (I live in Ontario now), as it's very rural and historical, a place I feel most comfortable. Taxes are expensive but cost of living is cheap. The only downside is that I don't know anyone there.
So a friend (with a husband and kids) is moving to Saskatchewan next year and is trying to persuade me to come with, as cost of living is low out west as well, but there are "many more job oppurtunities". The thing is, while it's safer financially to head that way, I don't want to go. Although my personality has a "follow your heart and you'll find where you belong" mindset, I base decisions on reason and the reason side of me says head to SK, even though my heart knows I won't be happy there. So this is how I see things going if I move to SK (which seems like the only option at this time), since I can't afford to further my education past high school:
I move out there, get a job I hate making a low (-but-higher-than-minimum) wage, and save for 10 years, move to PEI and open my business (pub or bed and breakfast). The negatives about this option is that I'll hate my job, have no life, and waste my young years working away... Which when I listen to my heart, is not what I want life to be about.
And my other option, is working at a job I like, making a low wage and travelling to different destinations once a year, which is more me following my heart, but I'll never have financial security and probably won't ever leave SK.
Can someone convince me there are reasons other than because I feel I belong in PEI, to move there? There shouldn't have to be any other reason, right? If I want to go, I should. But as much as my heart is telling my head that, I can't convince myself it's the logical thing to do.
I think I need reassurance, that it's okay to move somewhere because you want to, and that it's okay to not be making a bunch of money a year because you're doing something you love...
I've always wanted to be a writer, and am often told that I should be but my "skills" come and go with my mood... GAH.