I am 13 year old girl. First of all, any pervs out there, don't try and track me down or anything. I'm tough as shit and I'll take you down -_-
Aaaaanyway.... I'm kinda immature and i think relationships and kissing and hugging are gross, but everyone around me is starting to get into couples. I tease them, and make fun of them, and keep saying how i'll never fall in love but... lately... *Sigh* I dont know. Like, 2 of my bffs(one boy, one girl) have known each other for 6 and a half years, and everyone knew they were gonna get together and everything, and they did a little while ago, but i think....i think i like the guy. I THINK And, they don't even do anything romantic or anything. And it kills me even more cause the guy always comes to me for relationship help and stuff cause he knows me well and i have to help him cause DUH hes my friend! And the girl is always too busy to go on dates and she never holds hands or anything or even lets him sit in the same bus seat with her. I dont wanna sound like i wanna break them up, but...i think i want him to be with ME not her...
But there's also another guy i MIGHT, i repeat MIGHT, like. But he's also taken - kinda. One of my other friends has a mega huge crush on him! But she's really violent and loud and outspoken and not his type...and he knows she has a mega huge crush on him and its kiiiinda creeping him out, i can tell... and she'll kill me if she finds out i miiiiiight like him too.
Also i think he might like me back...but im not sure. Like once on the bus, my friends and i sat in one place and he had to sit a few weeks back from us cause the bus was too crowded for him to sit closer and we had just been talking outside. I sat in one seat with one of my friends' and 2 sat in the seat behind me and he sat a few seats behind them. I had my head turned to the friends behind me, and i saw him leaning kinda out of his seat and into the aisle and his head strained upwards, trying to look at us. I tried not to look at him, but then i had to and i smiled at him and he smiled back. Is that just a friendly gesture or...?
He's really funny and.... kinda cute ....and he's like me - not one of the cool kids, but not a total loser with no friends that everyone hates. He and I have our own unique brains and ways of thinking, like we're both violent and are easily made happy and find funny things in the oddest things. My friend isn't anything like that... He and I also go to book clubs every monday b4 school and this christian club every thursday morning for at least half hour each. She finds no interest in any of that.
But I'm definetly not the prettiest girl around so I doubt he'd like me. Like, on of those friends who's really fun to be around, but not someone you'd ever consider dating. I know what you're gonna say "Looks dont matter!" or "If he judges you by your looks, then he's not worth it!" but lets face it - you really wouldn't date someone ugly. Maybe after you've known them for so long you don't mind their looks at all, but even though we've known each other for 2-3 years, we haven't talked as much as we do now, which is on the bus for like 5 mins every morning, when we see each other in the hall way, and at the clubs.
It sounds like i like him, don't i? Lol i haven't even told my best friends about this. Im too embarressed and i wanna sort out my feelings first. Everyone knows me as the fun loving, crazy, hyper, violent, corrupt and sick minded girl, but i have another side that few of my friends have seen. Its soft and easily hurt, its the one that makes me wanna dress nicely every once in a while, its the one that makes me wanna try on makeup, and its the one all my crushes come from. I dont show that im crushing - i never do until i figure out my feelings, which i always need help with.
Aww crap i started rambling on. Sorry! Lol when i vent, i really do vent, don't I? Just skim through or something. But please help me! Im so confused!
Aaaaanyway.... I'm kinda immature and i think relationships and kissing and hugging are gross, but everyone around me is starting to get into couples. I tease them, and make fun of them, and keep saying how i'll never fall in love but... lately... *Sigh* I dont know. Like, 2 of my bffs(one boy, one girl) have known each other for 6 and a half years, and everyone knew they were gonna get together and everything, and they did a little while ago, but i think....i think i like the guy. I THINK And, they don't even do anything romantic or anything. And it kills me even more cause the guy always comes to me for relationship help and stuff cause he knows me well and i have to help him cause DUH hes my friend! And the girl is always too busy to go on dates and she never holds hands or anything or even lets him sit in the same bus seat with her. I dont wanna sound like i wanna break them up, but...i think i want him to be with ME not her...
But there's also another guy i MIGHT, i repeat MIGHT, like. But he's also taken - kinda. One of my other friends has a mega huge crush on him! But she's really violent and loud and outspoken and not his type...and he knows she has a mega huge crush on him and its kiiiinda creeping him out, i can tell... and she'll kill me if she finds out i miiiiiight like him too.
Also i think he might like me back...but im not sure. Like once on the bus, my friends and i sat in one place and he had to sit a few weeks back from us cause the bus was too crowded for him to sit closer and we had just been talking outside. I sat in one seat with one of my friends' and 2 sat in the seat behind me and he sat a few seats behind them. I had my head turned to the friends behind me, and i saw him leaning kinda out of his seat and into the aisle and his head strained upwards, trying to look at us. I tried not to look at him, but then i had to and i smiled at him and he smiled back. Is that just a friendly gesture or...?
He's really funny and.... kinda cute ....and he's like me - not one of the cool kids, but not a total loser with no friends that everyone hates. He and I have our own unique brains and ways of thinking, like we're both violent and are easily made happy and find funny things in the oddest things. My friend isn't anything like that... He and I also go to book clubs every monday b4 school and this christian club every thursday morning for at least half hour each. She finds no interest in any of that.
But I'm definetly not the prettiest girl around so I doubt he'd like me. Like, on of those friends who's really fun to be around, but not someone you'd ever consider dating. I know what you're gonna say "Looks dont matter!" or "If he judges you by your looks, then he's not worth it!" but lets face it - you really wouldn't date someone ugly. Maybe after you've known them for so long you don't mind their looks at all, but even though we've known each other for 2-3 years, we haven't talked as much as we do now, which is on the bus for like 5 mins every morning, when we see each other in the hall way, and at the clubs.
It sounds like i like him, don't i? Lol i haven't even told my best friends about this. Im too embarressed and i wanna sort out my feelings first. Everyone knows me as the fun loving, crazy, hyper, violent, corrupt and sick minded girl, but i have another side that few of my friends have seen. Its soft and easily hurt, its the one that makes me wanna dress nicely every once in a while, its the one that makes me wanna try on makeup, and its the one all my crushes come from. I dont show that im crushing - i never do until i figure out my feelings, which i always need help with.
Aww crap i started rambling on. Sorry! Lol when i vent, i really do vent, don't I? Just skim through or something. But please help me! Im so confused!