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Message: <blockquote data-quote="March6411" data-source="post: 2346023" data-attributes="member: 812070">...have to say..? Ok so pretty much i just really need to vent about whats going on in my life right now because quite frankly its a lot for me to have on my plate at the moment. Well we might as well start from the very start. Basically im a 20 year old male college student with three things in my life that are hard to handle: my parents are in the mist of a bad divorce, my girlfriend just left me, and i have no friends because i just transferred schools. So lets start with the divorce, basically id say it is not a very pleasent divorce, they are constanly fighting over money and all this stuff and they always drag me into it. I always tell them to stop and to leave me out of it but somehow i always get dragged into it. Honestly its really pushing me away from both of them, I used to be really close with my parents but now all they do is either talk about how the other is screwing them out of money or how my brother is doing in hockey. They both dont know anything about what is giong on in my life because all they do is bitch about one another and its driving me insane, I honestly cant stand talking to them half the time because all they do it bitch or have me play spy as i call it and tell them what the other is doing and i hate them both for it because i have sat down with both of them and told them to stop but they just dont get it.Then to add onto that my girlfriend of two years just left me a week ago. We started dating our freshman year of college but we went to different schools, I go to school in ohio and she goes to school in pittsburgh, and the distance ended up killing our realitionship. The problem is that we are both still in love with eachother and we still talk as if were dating. Im prefectly fine with the talking because we are eachothers best friends and we can both freely admit it but it just sucks because shes going out and having fun while im stuck doing nothing (more on that later). I mean shes straight up admitted that when she gets to do clinicals in 2 years that she wants to move down to where i go to school and do them so we can be together. I mean we were talking about getting married and all this other stuff and it just sucks now because even though the feelings are still there we just can’t be together because of the distance. I mean we are honestly the best couple when we are together its just when we are apart that we start to have some issues that makes it hard to make this work. And it just kills me to even think about her with another guy. I know this is stupid but i honestly just dont know what to do. She is basically my only friend right now that i can actually talk. The problem comes in because for some reason everytime she goes out i always get this one idea in my head where shes with another guy and it just morphs and changes over time to where she is sleeping with this other guy and that just kills me to even think about it, even though i logically know that nothing is going on subconsciously i just think that something is happening and i just want to throw up and not even deal with it anymore.And finally, i just transfered schools and i have no friends down here. Ive always been an extreamly social person. In highschool i knew everybody and i had a ton of friends, my first two years of college where identical, I went to school to play for the schools hockey team and between that and everything else i knew so many people. I did everything with the team and we were a family and it was the best time of my life, but half way through last season i broke my wrist and was in a cast for 6 months and lost a lot of motion in my wrist. So I lost my scholarship and ended up transferring schools because that school didn’t offer my major anyways. So now here i am now at a new school and i know maybe 2 people. I have no friends at school, i went from being able to walk anywhere and see 15-20 people who were good friends, to seeing nobody. And im not bad at making friends it just takes time to establish relationships with people when you only see them maybe 4 hours a week in class. It also sucks because both of my roommates were good friends in hs and they have their own set of friends and its hard to get into that group once its already been solidifed over time. Ive also joined clubs, I play for the lacrosse club, I coach youth hockey, I also joined the chem and skydiving clubs, I just don’t know them well yet. Like last night and right now, everybody is out having a good time at a party and im sitting here alone playing my guitar trying to make it to the next day when everybody i know is out having a good time and all because I’m too proud to ask if i can tag along with people. idk it just sucks and between everything that is giong on i feel like i am just an overloaded bag of emotions that can either be happy or depressed on a moments notice. Sorry for ranting about my pitiful life i just needed to tell someone how im feeling and since i really have no one to talk.</blockquote>

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