wintersprinter2009
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- Mar 18, 2009
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I'm 15.
my mom always says "you have ocd" and my siblings and cousins make fun of me. they think im like insane & they think its a joke, but i was reading about the symptoms and i'm really scared.
for as long as i can remember i've had really weird obssessions and compulsions.
my hands are red and cracking because i insist on washing them everytime i touch something. i open doors with my shirt or sleeve. i hate shaking hands in Church, and sometimes I run to the bathroom just so i don't have to. i hate dirtiness and its so pathetic but even at my age, i still feel like certain people have germs or like almost "cooties." if those people touch me or bump into me, inside my head i start to freak out. my gross teacher once hugged me and my face felt wierd so i wiped handsanitizer all over a tissue and rubbed it on my face.
im obssessed with doing everything perfectly and having things in order. ive had straight A's in every subject since the first grade, and before tests i feel like im going to throw up in fear that im gonna do horribly. my friends dont get it and theyre always saying "you always gett 100, so what are you worried about?" i just cant help it, and i hate the feeling.
i always want everything exactly in order. when i was in i think the 6th grade i begged my mom for a label maker but she was like "what are you gonna do with that?" i get excited whenever i get new stuff to help me organize: those 3cubed plastic things that you roll around, & labels. my perfumes are arranged in height order and everything in my room has a place. when i was younger i LOVED to vaccuum and cleaning my room makes me all happy.
i obssess over EVERYTHING. guys, tv shows, books, characters likee edward cullen from twilight, or ricky underwood from secret life. once someone brings it up, i cant stop talking about it and i feel bad.
i used to be SUPER bossy because i like things a certain way. i hated it but i couldnt stand it if something went wrong or not my way.
about a year and a half ago, i started pulling my hair out. i dont even know why. i pull outt the hairs from my head and my eyelashes and eyebrows. its not like im bald or anything but its embarrassing and i feel weird about it.
i used to be obssessed with cars when i was probably like seven. whenever one would pass by id have to say the name of it like 15 times or i couldnt relax.
i ask soooo many questions and i repeat myself all the time. that really annoys people but i cant help it.
at night, i have to check and make sure i turned the bathroom light off and the faucet off about 20 times. or i cant fall asleep. i have to make sure all the doors are locked and on top of that, i tell my parents not to forget to check.
when i was younger, i had the worst twitches. i would blink my eyes alot, or widen them up. id make weird humming noises. my uncle always made fun of me cause he doesnt understand and hes an idiot, but it hurt and i couldnt stop.
sometimes, when i wake up in the middle of the night, i remember something i forgot to write down on my things to remember for morning list. so i have to jump out of bed and find a pen and paper.
im always afraid im gonna forget important things and i cant relax until i write it down.
i used to go to my brothers room and night and move the blankets because i was afraid he'd suffocate.
i also keep things that have no worth. i wanna get rid of it, but while im cleaning it out, i try to come up with a reason for why id need it.
i hate when other people touch me or touch my things.
im not an animal person and dog hair makes me nauseous. some of my cousins that have dogs make me flip inside when they go into my room.
i spend so much time on my looks. i obssess over the way my eyebrows look or if i have dry skin on my forehead. my hair has to look perfect everyday. sometimes i see girls in the hall and their hair looks like crap. i just think to myself how i could never do that. my hair always has to be either pin straight or curly with no frizz.
i hate getting in trouble. and i hatee not having things exactly as i think they should be.
i think i really have a problem, but im so embarrassed to even say it out loud. what do i do?
my mom always says "you have ocd" and my siblings and cousins make fun of me. they think im like insane & they think its a joke, but i was reading about the symptoms and i'm really scared.
for as long as i can remember i've had really weird obssessions and compulsions.
my hands are red and cracking because i insist on washing them everytime i touch something. i open doors with my shirt or sleeve. i hate shaking hands in Church, and sometimes I run to the bathroom just so i don't have to. i hate dirtiness and its so pathetic but even at my age, i still feel like certain people have germs or like almost "cooties." if those people touch me or bump into me, inside my head i start to freak out. my gross teacher once hugged me and my face felt wierd so i wiped handsanitizer all over a tissue and rubbed it on my face.
im obssessed with doing everything perfectly and having things in order. ive had straight A's in every subject since the first grade, and before tests i feel like im going to throw up in fear that im gonna do horribly. my friends dont get it and theyre always saying "you always gett 100, so what are you worried about?" i just cant help it, and i hate the feeling.
i always want everything exactly in order. when i was in i think the 6th grade i begged my mom for a label maker but she was like "what are you gonna do with that?" i get excited whenever i get new stuff to help me organize: those 3cubed plastic things that you roll around, & labels. my perfumes are arranged in height order and everything in my room has a place. when i was younger i LOVED to vaccuum and cleaning my room makes me all happy.
i obssess over EVERYTHING. guys, tv shows, books, characters likee edward cullen from twilight, or ricky underwood from secret life. once someone brings it up, i cant stop talking about it and i feel bad.
i used to be SUPER bossy because i like things a certain way. i hated it but i couldnt stand it if something went wrong or not my way.
about a year and a half ago, i started pulling my hair out. i dont even know why. i pull outt the hairs from my head and my eyelashes and eyebrows. its not like im bald or anything but its embarrassing and i feel weird about it.
i used to be obssessed with cars when i was probably like seven. whenever one would pass by id have to say the name of it like 15 times or i couldnt relax.
i ask soooo many questions and i repeat myself all the time. that really annoys people but i cant help it.
at night, i have to check and make sure i turned the bathroom light off and the faucet off about 20 times. or i cant fall asleep. i have to make sure all the doors are locked and on top of that, i tell my parents not to forget to check.
when i was younger, i had the worst twitches. i would blink my eyes alot, or widen them up. id make weird humming noises. my uncle always made fun of me cause he doesnt understand and hes an idiot, but it hurt and i couldnt stop.
sometimes, when i wake up in the middle of the night, i remember something i forgot to write down on my things to remember for morning list. so i have to jump out of bed and find a pen and paper.
im always afraid im gonna forget important things and i cant relax until i write it down.
i used to go to my brothers room and night and move the blankets because i was afraid he'd suffocate.
i also keep things that have no worth. i wanna get rid of it, but while im cleaning it out, i try to come up with a reason for why id need it.
i hate when other people touch me or touch my things.
im not an animal person and dog hair makes me nauseous. some of my cousins that have dogs make me flip inside when they go into my room.
i spend so much time on my looks. i obssess over the way my eyebrows look or if i have dry skin on my forehead. my hair has to look perfect everyday. sometimes i see girls in the hall and their hair looks like crap. i just think to myself how i could never do that. my hair always has to be either pin straight or curly with no frizz.
i hate getting in trouble. and i hatee not having things exactly as i think they should be.
i think i really have a problem, but im so embarrassed to even say it out loud. what do i do?