i feel these small urges twords other guys and i never feel them twords girls. i hate having to deal with the thought i might be gay. why me? nobody i know is gay. nobody in my family is gay. i dont know how to deal with it. every day i wish that i was not gay so i could live a normal life with a wife when i grow up but im starting to feel like it wont happen. my life wont be normal. ill get tortured and insulted by other people because i was born different. my life is ruined. i dont know what to do. can somebody give me any adivice? is anybody else here gay?