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...ultimately unsatisfying.? I'm feeling lonely, as if I'm not wanted, really, by anyone.
I feel as though I'm never good enough, like I shouldn't be anyone's friend because I'd be more of a burden than anything because I'm so uptight, and self-conscious.
But of course, I'm too shy to confess this to any of my friends because they would just brush me off and think I'm being stupid, but I figured that clean, objective advice from a stranger would be best.
I have three older sisters and I've always felt second best because it has always seemed like literally everone enjoyed their company more, and placed me at second priority.
One would think that as I grew up I would find my own "click" and grow out of this insecurity, but no, I'm 20 now, and everything is the same.
I don't really know what to do, which is why I'm asking for advice from strangers.
I'm sorry this is such a long question,
and I'm sorry if it's sort of rhetorical, you know, sort of unable to be answered.
I feel as though I'm never good enough, like I shouldn't be anyone's friend because I'd be more of a burden than anything because I'm so uptight, and self-conscious.
But of course, I'm too shy to confess this to any of my friends because they would just brush me off and think I'm being stupid, but I figured that clean, objective advice from a stranger would be best.
I have three older sisters and I've always felt second best because it has always seemed like literally everone enjoyed their company more, and placed me at second priority.
One would think that as I grew up I would find my own "click" and grow out of this insecurity, but no, I'm 20 now, and everything is the same.
I don't really know what to do, which is why I'm asking for advice from strangers.
I'm sorry this is such a long question,
and I'm sorry if it's sort of rhetorical, you know, sort of unable to be answered.