Since was younger I have had an emotional/maternal attraction to women, where i imagine other women are my mum, or imagine scenarios where other females are caring for me etc. I went through a period about two months ago where i started obbseesivly worrying whether I was a lesbian and started testing myself by having sexual thoughts about women, even though they weren't genuine, and I have NEVER had any sexual thoughts about women in my LIFE before, now i keep having these thoughts even though i don't want to! Before this i was always thinking about being in relationship with a guy and even had a crush on my male teacher for a year, now since this once day when i started obsessively worrying i feel so negative towards guys. I only like having maternal/ emotional thoughts about women, i see that as a unique aspect of who I am, but does this mean i'm a lesbian? If i was a lesbian I would of had these 'made up' sexual thoughts about women before this one particular day right? i'm 18 and have never been in a 'proper' relationship before.