...like a second chance maybe? Ok I know this may sound weird, but I wanna sell my soul to the devil cause my life isn't going the way I wanted & my religion isnt helping in anyway, Im a christian & I did except Jesus Christ as my lord & savior ever since I was young, & people always say God will hear our prayers but I tried so, so hard to reach the man up stairs but there was nothing there, only me & nobody else, it felt like I was talking to a wall, they always say give your problems to God he will take care of'em for you cause he works in mysterious ways but wheres the proof in that so I did give my problems through prayer for many years but nothing happened. Then I began havin dout that there is a God so I renounced my religion. But what I know is that demons and Satan are real & Ive hypothecticly seen his power worked on people, Ive heard stories of people who sold there soul to have a better life mostly musicians, & I want that a better life! But I can't explain how messed up my life is but Im not a drug dealer, killer, rapeist or any of those crazy things. I just cant keep living the way I do. Ive been praying to Jesus Christ everyday since I was very young like 5 & now Im 20yrs old & nothing hasnt change maybe I just got lost along the way I dont know and I wanna go to college but I cant, lifes to hard with the bills, my future, everything. So I tried to suicide but my christian religion got under my skin & stopped me but now Ive change & I want to know is it really possible to sell our soul to the Satan, I want a second chance in life, a better one...
...I know I sound like a weirdo or maybe a freak but I want this so bad, it seems like God turned his back on me and Jesus maybe closed his ears to my prayers I dont know? But when you hear the story of how Lucifer fell from grace it seems like he was right though about us human, his name even means: "Light Bringer" so maybe he could shed light on my problems & whatever etc etc, but can this be done? Is there anybody out there who did this and has proof of anysort? Please tell me! and please no bad comment Im feelin down already as it is. Thank you <=]
...I know I sound like a weirdo or maybe a freak but I want this so bad, it seems like God turned his back on me and Jesus maybe closed his ears to my prayers I dont know? But when you hear the story of how Lucifer fell from grace it seems like he was right though about us human, his name even means: "Light Bringer" so maybe he could shed light on my problems & whatever etc etc, but can this be done? Is there anybody out there who did this and has proof of anysort? Please tell me! and please no bad comment Im feelin down already as it is. Thank you <=]