If i lie to someone's face it makes me feel like an asshole.
If i kill someone, i will never forget it ever.
If i steal something it makes me feel like i'm lesser.
If i rape, it makes me feel like.. wait this would never happen. But if i did, it makes me feel like i should die.
If i torture, it makes me feel like a fly.
If i make fun of someone lesser then i'll feel like i'm the one who should cry.
If i beat someone up just because i can, it makes me feel like i'm the smallest fry in the box.
If i cheat on my girlfriend and she deserves the best, then it makes me feel like i'm just any other guy.
When you want to be the good guy the guy of Christ, then when you try to be the bad guy, your soul hurts twice.
Some things that i've said here, i've never really done. But if i did them now, i know i'd feel the burn, once for when i did it, once for afterwards, once for if i remembered it, once for if it came back to me.
For the past of my life, all my bad actions so far, i deserve to die i admit that i should fry. The results of my actions should have never happened in the first place, what is now the future could have been better if i had just chosen to try, and not do what i looked back on and said, "Dear Jesus, i deserve to die, i know i shouldn't be alive right now, i deserve no other chance."
Thank God for those of you who don't believe in God, who don't believe in sins, who don't believe in cry.
You don't have to feel your soul rip from every bad thing you try. Your soul feels complete no matter what ever you try.
But when i do something bad it feels like an eye for my eye, yet twice as worse as that it feels like i should just die, not because i want to but because i deserve to fry.
Once i looked back on that day when i ruined that kids year in first grade, i couldn't understand why i would do that, it didn't seem like me. I started to cry because instead of making friends i just tore his chance of making friends away. I think hope he wants to kill me because i think he should want to. I cried to Jesus in a prayer telling him how sorry i was, i could not understand how i could be such a little SHIT. It wasn't even that i grew up in a bad home, or that i was conditioned to be shitty. It was just a simple choice i made to be a little pain, in the life of another. I cried 0 but he could have cried plenty.
I told Jesus i wished i never did it and i wish i could say sorry to that boy, not because it was a sin, not because of hell, not because of heaven, but because i made him feel like hell.
It's a good thing those of you who don't walk in the shoes i do now, you don't have to feel your soul ripped by what you do.
You can't live the best of both worlds. I've learned it's one or the other, only. I suppose these are the downfalls of choosing the other.
"and that your only sense of self control comes from a belief in a god."
What did i say?
"i wished i never did it and i wish i could say sorry to that boy, not because it was a sin, not because of hell, not because of heaven, but because i made him feel like hell."
Why would you say that? It is completely untrue.
"Anyways, I think you're probably a bad person, but only God can judge you."
LMFAO, are you kidding me?
First of all i'm a christian second of all what you think is wrong. THIRD based on everyone's actions on the entire planet, past the age of 20, we are all "bad" people, based on what we've done in the past REGARDLESS of repent.
If i kill someone, i will never forget it ever.
If i steal something it makes me feel like i'm lesser.
If i rape, it makes me feel like.. wait this would never happen. But if i did, it makes me feel like i should die.
If i torture, it makes me feel like a fly.
If i make fun of someone lesser then i'll feel like i'm the one who should cry.
If i beat someone up just because i can, it makes me feel like i'm the smallest fry in the box.
If i cheat on my girlfriend and she deserves the best, then it makes me feel like i'm just any other guy.
When you want to be the good guy the guy of Christ, then when you try to be the bad guy, your soul hurts twice.
Some things that i've said here, i've never really done. But if i did them now, i know i'd feel the burn, once for when i did it, once for afterwards, once for if i remembered it, once for if it came back to me.
For the past of my life, all my bad actions so far, i deserve to die i admit that i should fry. The results of my actions should have never happened in the first place, what is now the future could have been better if i had just chosen to try, and not do what i looked back on and said, "Dear Jesus, i deserve to die, i know i shouldn't be alive right now, i deserve no other chance."
Thank God for those of you who don't believe in God, who don't believe in sins, who don't believe in cry.
You don't have to feel your soul rip from every bad thing you try. Your soul feels complete no matter what ever you try.
But when i do something bad it feels like an eye for my eye, yet twice as worse as that it feels like i should just die, not because i want to but because i deserve to fry.
Once i looked back on that day when i ruined that kids year in first grade, i couldn't understand why i would do that, it didn't seem like me. I started to cry because instead of making friends i just tore his chance of making friends away. I think hope he wants to kill me because i think he should want to. I cried to Jesus in a prayer telling him how sorry i was, i could not understand how i could be such a little SHIT. It wasn't even that i grew up in a bad home, or that i was conditioned to be shitty. It was just a simple choice i made to be a little pain, in the life of another. I cried 0 but he could have cried plenty.
I told Jesus i wished i never did it and i wish i could say sorry to that boy, not because it was a sin, not because of hell, not because of heaven, but because i made him feel like hell.
It's a good thing those of you who don't walk in the shoes i do now, you don't have to feel your soul ripped by what you do.
You can't live the best of both worlds. I've learned it's one or the other, only. I suppose these are the downfalls of choosing the other.
"and that your only sense of self control comes from a belief in a god."
What did i say?
"i wished i never did it and i wish i could say sorry to that boy, not because it was a sin, not because of hell, not because of heaven, but because i made him feel like hell."
Why would you say that? It is completely untrue.
"Anyways, I think you're probably a bad person, but only God can judge you."
LMFAO, are you kidding me?
First of all i'm a christian second of all what you think is wrong. THIRD based on everyone's actions on the entire planet, past the age of 20, we are all "bad" people, based on what we've done in the past REGARDLESS of repent.