I just turned 18 and is feels as if my whole world is crumbling around me. everything is going wrong. I've tried manning up and doing workouts and running. I've tried scaring myself by leavin my life up to me spinning a knife. I can't sleep at night its been three weeks with less than 3 hours of sleep a night. Before all this happened I cried maybe otwice a year for normal things. now I just bawl into my pillow at night. I don't want to tlk to anybody I know because I dnt want their image of me to change. I don't think I'm ready to die, but its always in. my mind.