Watching movies sucks when you don't have a girlfriend. It really sucks when you've never had a girlfriend. I know it's probably my fualt, I really don't care for people or make any sort of effort. That and when I know that someones going through a bad time, i still don't help them. But i haven't had a crush in two years. My opprotunities to meet women just somehow died when i started taking engineering classes. Haven't had a job in a while, been living off school money staying with my parents. Bought my dad a car with it, paid another 1000 to fix it after he broke it. Let my sister borrow 3000 to pay off her car. Now im broke right before christmas, driving a pos honda with a donut because i can't afford a wheel. But most of all, what sucks is I've lost hope that I'd ever find love. I use to blame it on me being broke. I didn't want anyone to see that. But, despite having a big family and friends, there's just a void.
