It's just really weird. I get scared and intimidated when someone shows romantic interest in me or shows me affection. Even if i think someone is cute and would actually like to be with them, i would completely keep them at a distance or just flat out pretend that they don't exist.
For example, today a decently cute girl gave me a glance. As soon as i caught her eye i turned away and refused to let myself look back in her direction.
I really want affection, but it's this weird feeling, like i don't deserve it, and i find it hard to believe someone would be truely interested in me...
For example, today a decently cute girl gave me a glance. As soon as i caught her eye i turned away and refused to let myself look back in her direction.
I really want affection, but it's this weird feeling, like i don't deserve it, and i find it hard to believe someone would be truely interested in me...