foolintherain
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- Dec 29, 2008
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My dad isn't like other dads (or at least, he's not what I think a dad should be). He doesn't have a pet name for me, he never gave me any advice, nor does he support me in any way other than financially. We've never had an emotional conversation.
My dad’s the man in my life that gives me money.
You figure, my dad gives me money for food and shelter, he must care. I should stop complaining like a big baby.
But I can't help feeling bad inside...
I can’t help feeling my dad doesn’t care.
He doesn’t really know who I am as a person. I get the feeling that the reason he provides for me is because being a father was the only thing he really could do with his life. He gives me money and I think he really thinks that what a father does, provides.
You see, my dad calls me retarded all the time. Constantly. It drives me insane. He makes me feel so bad inside. He's called me lots of other names, and it makes me feel so bad about myself. My dad also has a VERY bad temper. Sometimes I get so worked up I have troubling with my breathing. And I believe him. I don't want to. Also, my dad hits me, but I’m not sure if what he does qualifies as abuse. He punched me on the shoulder one time, I don’t think he really meant it, I don’t know though.
Please help. I know this doesn’t sound like the end of the world. Lately I’ve really been thinking about whether or not I’d be better off dead, though. My grandma passed away and now there’s no one to counter-react all the negative in my life. I haven’t heard an “I Love You” all year.
Boo-hoo, I know.
I just can’t get over this.
I feel so bad inside. Please help.
My dad’s the man in my life that gives me money.
You figure, my dad gives me money for food and shelter, he must care. I should stop complaining like a big baby.
But I can't help feeling bad inside...
I can’t help feeling my dad doesn’t care.
He doesn’t really know who I am as a person. I get the feeling that the reason he provides for me is because being a father was the only thing he really could do with his life. He gives me money and I think he really thinks that what a father does, provides.
You see, my dad calls me retarded all the time. Constantly. It drives me insane. He makes me feel so bad inside. He's called me lots of other names, and it makes me feel so bad about myself. My dad also has a VERY bad temper. Sometimes I get so worked up I have troubling with my breathing. And I believe him. I don't want to. Also, my dad hits me, but I’m not sure if what he does qualifies as abuse. He punched me on the shoulder one time, I don’t think he really meant it, I don’t know though.
Please help. I know this doesn’t sound like the end of the world. Lately I’ve really been thinking about whether or not I’d be better off dead, though. My grandma passed away and now there’s no one to counter-react all the negative in my life. I haven’t heard an “I Love You” all year.
Boo-hoo, I know.
I just can’t get over this.
I feel so bad inside. Please help.