I feel like I need to talk to someone about this or get out my story.
I moved into my new house, with a back yard sept 28. It was a pet friendly place, which I was so happy to find. My husband, son and i had been living in an apartment for a year previously to the move and the place we lived at was not dog friendly, so we bascially hid her, which no one knew but the super.
Well when we moved, the next day the electricity went out, and I had just called pseg a few hrs before that happen, to tell them we moved ect. When that happened I was back on the phone with them, pushing them to come that same day, as I have a son who needs his milk to be fresh. They told me to exspect the guy from 4-12pm, not knowing if i had to sign anything, I was at home anyways. Well around 5:45pm the lights went on and as I was just about to change a diaper the door bell rang. I went rush to the door, yelling just a min and tried looking out the window, but we had so many boxes all over the things. As I went to open the first door and then went to pull it behind me to open the next one, I noticed my dog had snuck out as i was opening the doors. By seconds she was already on the porch and so was I standing like an idiot confused why the pseg was accross the street already at his van. As I was holding my baby I tried coaching my becky back inside, but the moment the pseg guy yelled "is everything working" she ran, she ran right across the street, which wasnt so far. ANd my street is not a busy street I live right behind a school. I watched a huge toyota pick up truck run over my baby girl. She didn't even cry, it happend so fast.She froze, not even half way into the street. Its a small narrow two way road. She died instantly, i couldnt even go to the road to pick her up and hold her, the pseg guy carried her to the porch for me, i had my son in my arms. I felt so frozen my self, it took a few moments for it to hit me, that my dog got run over and was dead. This happened 2 days after we moved, for her and 3 days before my son and grandfather's birthday. My becky also shared the same birthday as my grandma, which was special. Because here I had my two kids, each with my grandparents birthdays. I feel so cheated out of my best friend. That was my only friend, I have no friends in nj. Its been a month. I keep crying and thinking about her.I feel like I murder her. Why i didnt take a couple seconds and use my other hand to grab her i dont know. I know when sometimes i try to grab her she runs from me. why i didn't just answer the door i dont know, or why i didnt make sure she was in the house, or why i didnt use the baby gate. I feel like im the one who murder her, not the guy who ran over her. I know it was an accident, but it shouldn't have happened. I love her and so badly I want her to know. she was soooo sweet and happy and only 2 1/2 years old. im crying right now, i cant help it, because it hurts. i feel like no one understands to watch your pet die infront of you and your son. My son loved her just as much.
I moved into my new house, with a back yard sept 28. It was a pet friendly place, which I was so happy to find. My husband, son and i had been living in an apartment for a year previously to the move and the place we lived at was not dog friendly, so we bascially hid her, which no one knew but the super.
Well when we moved, the next day the electricity went out, and I had just called pseg a few hrs before that happen, to tell them we moved ect. When that happened I was back on the phone with them, pushing them to come that same day, as I have a son who needs his milk to be fresh. They told me to exspect the guy from 4-12pm, not knowing if i had to sign anything, I was at home anyways. Well around 5:45pm the lights went on and as I was just about to change a diaper the door bell rang. I went rush to the door, yelling just a min and tried looking out the window, but we had so many boxes all over the things. As I went to open the first door and then went to pull it behind me to open the next one, I noticed my dog had snuck out as i was opening the doors. By seconds she was already on the porch and so was I standing like an idiot confused why the pseg was accross the street already at his van. As I was holding my baby I tried coaching my becky back inside, but the moment the pseg guy yelled "is everything working" she ran, she ran right across the street, which wasnt so far. ANd my street is not a busy street I live right behind a school. I watched a huge toyota pick up truck run over my baby girl. She didn't even cry, it happend so fast.She froze, not even half way into the street. Its a small narrow two way road. She died instantly, i couldnt even go to the road to pick her up and hold her, the pseg guy carried her to the porch for me, i had my son in my arms. I felt so frozen my self, it took a few moments for it to hit me, that my dog got run over and was dead. This happened 2 days after we moved, for her and 3 days before my son and grandfather's birthday. My becky also shared the same birthday as my grandma, which was special. Because here I had my two kids, each with my grandparents birthdays. I feel so cheated out of my best friend. That was my only friend, I have no friends in nj. Its been a month. I keep crying and thinking about her.I feel like I murder her. Why i didnt take a couple seconds and use my other hand to grab her i dont know. I know when sometimes i try to grab her she runs from me. why i didn't just answer the door i dont know, or why i didnt make sure she was in the house, or why i didnt use the baby gate. I feel like im the one who murder her, not the guy who ran over her. I know it was an accident, but it shouldn't have happened. I love her and so badly I want her to know. she was soooo sweet and happy and only 2 1/2 years old. im crying right now, i cant help it, because it hurts. i feel like no one understands to watch your pet die infront of you and your son. My son loved her just as much.