My mom passed away from a heart attack like close to 3 mths ago.She missed my 20th birthday which was so weird since she spoke abt me turning 20 so much.I cried I get angry.But alot of the time im so numb.Whats goin on w/ me? What should I be feeling at 3 mths? I have my dad an 2 sisters who are all dealing in their own way.My mom an dad were so happy together its so weird for my dad now.I was so close to her.Me and my sisters an my mom were so close.We spent alot of time together all 4 of us.I spent everyday w/ her out & abt after I finished mt job at 1.I did'nt want to get a second job in the afternoon bec that would mean I would'nt beable to hang out w/ her.We woud get lunch together drive where ever we wanted.I miss my best friend & the person I coud tell e/t and a/t to. Im close to my sisters.But a mom is different.it freaks me out how I have her eyes,smile,hands.But she is not here anymore.Which I dont believe.When I believe it I cant take it.But btw I would not talk to a therapist. Im taking it one day at a time.But im just so confused. Can any of you relate? how did you feel by 3 mths? did you feel like your in a soap opera when you found out the person you cared abt died? thx