him. How do I forgive? I'm blaming myself because I should never have entrusted this person with my puppy. He was 10 months old. He meant the world to me. The person is an elderly relative, and they meant well but they really do not have experience with dogs. I wanted them to take my puppy out because I had to work late. They had taken him out before with no apparent problems. Apparently, he was laying on the grass and wiggled out of his harness. He jumped up and began to play. She tried to get him but his ran into the street and ran right into an oncoming car. He died instantly. I was called at work. I blame myself for using a harness that he slipped out of instead of a martingale and I blame myself for trusting this person with my dog. I never felt totally comfortable with them watching my dog but I thought it would help them and show them that I trust them. Now my puppy is gone. I am totally devastated. This happened Tuesday. The grief is almost unbearable.