Ok, so I was thinking, I never really fully understood gay people because I am not actually attracted sexually to EITHER gender. Not to say I don't have a sex drive, I do...but I am only with a man because I am a female...not because I am attracted to men...so of course men on men always seemed odd to me because I didn't see the point in it since woman+man= right (since I wanted children and that is the mathmatical equation for a baby)
but I have kissed a few girls in my day, I have loved some too. I would be in a relationship with one without a problem ...but not for her body, but for her mind. I don't know why I'm so confused..is this normal? Am I just confusing friendship with love? ...which would mean I don't understand love...which could mean I only love my husband as a friend (oh, that would suck, eh?)
maybe I just have BPD...I don't know...any thoughts??
lol...um, the kissing girls thing was a few times in my early childhood...when I was 15, when I was 21...and with my husband when we were all drunk....he did more than just kiss her. We don't drink anymore, lol. But he wouldn't object to me having a girlfriend on the side, he's told me that and I think if I met the right girl I wouldn't object to it either.
Also...I do have a sex drive. My husband doesn't really turn me on though, lol. So I usually have to "take care of myself"...sorry if that's TMI
I want to add that there was a time I was VERY much in love with my husband and I didn't think anything could change that, but he did some dirty things to upset me when I was pregnant and I haven't really been able to look at him the same way. Hmm. I dunno. Maybe I just fell out of being in love but haven't lost the love for him completely...oh it is SO complicated, isn't it??
....oh and also..I actually FORGOT about how much I WAS in love with my husband until someone pointed out how when you love someone you can't stop thinking about them, etc...then I was like "oh yeah..." ha
but I have kissed a few girls in my day, I have loved some too. I would be in a relationship with one without a problem ...but not for her body, but for her mind. I don't know why I'm so confused..is this normal? Am I just confusing friendship with love? ...which would mean I don't understand love...which could mean I only love my husband as a friend (oh, that would suck, eh?)
maybe I just have BPD...I don't know...any thoughts??
lol...um, the kissing girls thing was a few times in my early childhood...when I was 15, when I was 21...and with my husband when we were all drunk....he did more than just kiss her. We don't drink anymore, lol. But he wouldn't object to me having a girlfriend on the side, he's told me that and I think if I met the right girl I wouldn't object to it either.
Also...I do have a sex drive. My husband doesn't really turn me on though, lol. So I usually have to "take care of myself"...sorry if that's TMI
I want to add that there was a time I was VERY much in love with my husband and I didn't think anything could change that, but he did some dirty things to upset me when I was pregnant and I haven't really been able to look at him the same way. Hmm. I dunno. Maybe I just fell out of being in love but haven't lost the love for him completely...oh it is SO complicated, isn't it??
....oh and also..I actually FORGOT about how much I WAS in love with my husband until someone pointed out how when you love someone you can't stop thinking about them, etc...then I was like "oh yeah..." ha