I'm 13. whats your opinion of this?
-The Second Chapter of My Life-
A late July day...it had happened. My father had committed suicide. Stuck the gun to his head, and popped the cap. It was done and over. So young to lose my father, especially being as close as I was with him. My life tore into several million different pieces, and I was just waiting for someone to come pick them back up and glue them together again. I remember him threatening to do it before..."I'm over it" he said in a comforting tone as I clutch him with dear life in tears as I confronted him about it. I guess I never really thought any more of it after that day. "Daddy would never lie to me.." I remember thinking...Look where that had ended up. It took me forever to become myself again. I hid the pain from anyway.. I was never one to show my emotions or talk about what I felt. I still don't. I was this way for a little less than a year. I had great friends and family to help me through it..but how could I turn to family when they were hurting just as much as me? Mom was divorced at the time.. I just didn't want to talk about it with her. Sister's were in just as much emotional pain as I was in. I always kind of thought they thought of it as a game.. who hurt more. That didn't make a difference in my life. I had met him..maybe around March of 2010..it started as a crush.. it ended up as family. Jeremy turned out to be my brother in the end..he really helped through a lot. I have never been so close to someone before. My life changed because of him. I was no longer depressed, it felt like I had a purpose to live again. This is when I started getting really serious about my future, grades, and career. I knew I wanted to become a music producer, Just how exactly I was going to get there was a different story. One way or another, I was going to do it, regardless of what anyone thought of me, or what anyone said I was destined to do. This is my life, and I will live it how I want too. Life is too short to be living by someone else's rules. Not only was this part of my life difficult because of the issues involving my father, but of course the drama and hardships a teenager deals with anyway. I've learned to becareful who you trust. People will talk behind your back. I have an attitude about that, that tends to differ...sometimes I'll say, "Forget them. They're not worth it." and at other times, it will really irritate me that people can be so mean. They will eventually learn revenge is what I do best.
What does not kill me will only make me stronger, and I am willing to go through tough times if it makes me into a better person. Everything will end up being the way it should be.
-The Second Chapter of My Life-
A late July day...it had happened. My father had committed suicide. Stuck the gun to his head, and popped the cap. It was done and over. So young to lose my father, especially being as close as I was with him. My life tore into several million different pieces, and I was just waiting for someone to come pick them back up and glue them together again. I remember him threatening to do it before..."I'm over it" he said in a comforting tone as I clutch him with dear life in tears as I confronted him about it. I guess I never really thought any more of it after that day. "Daddy would never lie to me.." I remember thinking...Look where that had ended up. It took me forever to become myself again. I hid the pain from anyway.. I was never one to show my emotions or talk about what I felt. I still don't. I was this way for a little less than a year. I had great friends and family to help me through it..but how could I turn to family when they were hurting just as much as me? Mom was divorced at the time.. I just didn't want to talk about it with her. Sister's were in just as much emotional pain as I was in. I always kind of thought they thought of it as a game.. who hurt more. That didn't make a difference in my life. I had met him..maybe around March of 2010..it started as a crush.. it ended up as family. Jeremy turned out to be my brother in the end..he really helped through a lot. I have never been so close to someone before. My life changed because of him. I was no longer depressed, it felt like I had a purpose to live again. This is when I started getting really serious about my future, grades, and career. I knew I wanted to become a music producer, Just how exactly I was going to get there was a different story. One way or another, I was going to do it, regardless of what anyone thought of me, or what anyone said I was destined to do. This is my life, and I will live it how I want too. Life is too short to be living by someone else's rules. Not only was this part of my life difficult because of the issues involving my father, but of course the drama and hardships a teenager deals with anyway. I've learned to becareful who you trust. People will talk behind your back. I have an attitude about that, that tends to differ...sometimes I'll say, "Forget them. They're not worth it." and at other times, it will really irritate me that people can be so mean. They will eventually learn revenge is what I do best.
What does not kill me will only make me stronger, and I am willing to go through tough times if it makes me into a better person. Everything will end up being the way it should be.