JohnAnderson
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I am a pathological lier, age 36, but I lie and deceive and fabricate falsehoods only when I drink a couple of beers or smoke cigarettes. I have caused numerous losses of friendships and relationships because of this. I even lied and fabricated a story today as a matter of fact, and feel suicidal because I was found out.
For ten years 1996-06, I became the human pin cushion, injecting heroin and cocaine mixtures into my arms legs thighs, etc....so I developed a daily habit of lying to many many people. I have been to many AA and NA meetings, but have not really benefitted from the sessions, for a variety of reasons. And have tried a number of prescribed meds to help, also w/o much success.....But I have been clean of illegal drugs since 2006......thank god for Methadone!
However, people always say to me, "Well, you just need to stop drinking, that's all"........well,....DUH! But if it was that easy, I don't think there would be a single alcoholic left on the planet....it's easier said than done, esp. from a person who has not experienced addiction and the struggles associated w/it, esp. when I wake up @ 4:00 in the morning ready to climb the walls with anxiety.
.....does anyone know of other means by which to combat Pathological Lying? I have deceived SO MANY people and stole from them over the years that I seriously have been considering suicide lately merely as a result of the intense guilt and remorse and complete lack of friends or partners in life....I could almost say that I don't even know how to be honest anymore......I now drink beer alone in my room, which paradoxically exacerbates the depression and weeping while making me feel "better".
Thank you,
John
For ten years 1996-06, I became the human pin cushion, injecting heroin and cocaine mixtures into my arms legs thighs, etc....so I developed a daily habit of lying to many many people. I have been to many AA and NA meetings, but have not really benefitted from the sessions, for a variety of reasons. And have tried a number of prescribed meds to help, also w/o much success.....But I have been clean of illegal drugs since 2006......thank god for Methadone!
However, people always say to me, "Well, you just need to stop drinking, that's all"........well,....DUH! But if it was that easy, I don't think there would be a single alcoholic left on the planet....it's easier said than done, esp. from a person who has not experienced addiction and the struggles associated w/it, esp. when I wake up @ 4:00 in the morning ready to climb the walls with anxiety.
.....does anyone know of other means by which to combat Pathological Lying? I have deceived SO MANY people and stole from them over the years that I seriously have been considering suicide lately merely as a result of the intense guilt and remorse and complete lack of friends or partners in life....I could almost say that I don't even know how to be honest anymore......I now drink beer alone in my room, which paradoxically exacerbates the depression and weeping while making me feel "better".
Thank you,
John