I was in tears earlier today. I feel so bad about myself and I need you to a true judge.
The story starts from years ago where my mom gave birth to my little sister who I loved a lot. My father was always mean with me and used to beat me up really bad when I was a child. I have an older sister too, my father was always mean with her as well but not as mean as he was to me. After my sister was born both my parents especially my dad was extra ordinary nice with my younger sister and got her what she wanted. I’m 25 and she is 18 now.
She was very spoiled and every year she got meaner with me and brought me down with the things she said to me. Last year 2007 we got in a fight, where she was looking for something and wanted us to look for it and find it, I actually looked around to find what she wanted but I couldn’t find that paper so she started a fight. She messed up my bedroom by throwing papers around to scare us and some how (me the person who deserves to die) got up and through papers too and she grabbed me and pushed me to the floor and I failed. I got mad and got up to beat her up because I thought she didn’t have any respect for her older sister but my mom and sister separated us.
She went to her own bedroom and made the music very loud so I went to turn it down and maybe slap her or something, I turned the music down and she turned it up, this happened 3 times till finally she got me mad and I pushed her to her bed and stared beating her and she did too. Then while beating I realized her nail on my skin which she tried to scratch my face and so (me the person who deserves to die) scratched her beautiful face too. But I swear to my family’s life I never even thought/ planned on scratching her face when I went to her room, the evil thing attacked me. We both bled and later we both used oils not to prevent future scar. Unfortunately I didn’t scar but she did scar and I really feel bad that I did this to her also the whole family mom/ dad and older sister are not the way they used to be with me. My older sister does not even talk to me anymore she is 26.
My family still baby her, when she comes to the room, my family acts like a 9 year old came to the room, they change their voice like they are talking to a baby, but not all the time. Me and my younger sister are both depressed now. It has been one year.we are only three sisters.
My sister is an angel that God gave me and I am looking forward for a day to prove her that I love her but she does not think she is guilty of this fault and acts like it was my fault and I admit that it is my fault and act like her slave and I’m scared to defend myself.
Please be an honest judge and tell me whose fault this is. Please for your love to God be honest and tell me who is guilty of this? Would God forgive me?
Please?
The story starts from years ago where my mom gave birth to my little sister who I loved a lot. My father was always mean with me and used to beat me up really bad when I was a child. I have an older sister too, my father was always mean with her as well but not as mean as he was to me. After my sister was born both my parents especially my dad was extra ordinary nice with my younger sister and got her what she wanted. I’m 25 and she is 18 now.
She was very spoiled and every year she got meaner with me and brought me down with the things she said to me. Last year 2007 we got in a fight, where she was looking for something and wanted us to look for it and find it, I actually looked around to find what she wanted but I couldn’t find that paper so she started a fight. She messed up my bedroom by throwing papers around to scare us and some how (me the person who deserves to die) got up and through papers too and she grabbed me and pushed me to the floor and I failed. I got mad and got up to beat her up because I thought she didn’t have any respect for her older sister but my mom and sister separated us.
She went to her own bedroom and made the music very loud so I went to turn it down and maybe slap her or something, I turned the music down and she turned it up, this happened 3 times till finally she got me mad and I pushed her to her bed and stared beating her and she did too. Then while beating I realized her nail on my skin which she tried to scratch my face and so (me the person who deserves to die) scratched her beautiful face too. But I swear to my family’s life I never even thought/ planned on scratching her face when I went to her room, the evil thing attacked me. We both bled and later we both used oils not to prevent future scar. Unfortunately I didn’t scar but she did scar and I really feel bad that I did this to her also the whole family mom/ dad and older sister are not the way they used to be with me. My older sister does not even talk to me anymore she is 26.
My family still baby her, when she comes to the room, my family acts like a 9 year old came to the room, they change their voice like they are talking to a baby, but not all the time. Me and my younger sister are both depressed now. It has been one year.we are only three sisters.
My sister is an angel that God gave me and I am looking forward for a day to prove her that I love her but she does not think she is guilty of this fault and acts like it was my fault and I admit that it is my fault and act like her slave and I’m scared to defend myself.
Please be an honest judge and tell me whose fault this is. Please for your love to God be honest and tell me who is guilty of this? Would God forgive me?
Please?