Ok this is my online story and I need to get rid of Depression I have no drive to write and I am an authoress on Fanfiction.net:
Ok so I start out on FF.net, writing a whole bunch of Naruto stories... I'm not very public, but I manage. Then one day, I am searching for Akatsuki fan fics, when I come across a story by a writer known at that time by Jingas Meitel. I thought it was a boy, just reading ALL of her amazingly funny stories! I kind of e-stalk her to her forum, and try to get myself acquainted with her.
Things went well at first, but then I started to piss off some of her friends, I don't know how I managed to do that. But a WHILE after that, then things went back to normal and I became friends with the author, Jen and her friend Lauren. Anyway I thought things were ultimately cool between us, so I used some of her comedy idea's in my own stories. It wasn't as cool as I had thought. For revenge, they created one of my worst nightmares: Hayley. She was my 'biggest fan' and also a girl who couldn't spell right at all. I suspected Jen form the start, but that thought quickly diminished.
Hayley in turn, stole MY idea's, like Mr. Lemons, and used them for utter crap fics. (Oh god How I despised her.) Only after... a few months did I learn that it was only Jen, Lauren, and another girl named Emily. That was the first blow.
I was devastated, almost crying my eyes out, thats when the Depression started entering my life. I found it harder and harder to keep my muse, and just calling it laziness. It wasn't. I started to lose my drive. I eventually forgave them, but it happened again, they Internet Trolled me. Depression really started dragging me down then. But then, a few apologies and Trolls later, they did it again, this time more recent. Depression had finally clouded my mind. I was so down, I started to think about what my friends and family would do if I killed myself.
I met some new friends, like Karly, Kelly, Mimi, Judaidara, and Mican. They helped me a bit, and suddenly the depression wasn't as great. I already had a friend who piled it up more and more though, Stephanie. I loved her, and I still think I do, but she used my love and lied to me. One day, I said to her, I have an idea. Lets go back to the way we were before the depression and trolling crap ruined it. She didn't agree, and only babbled on and on about how her water has Female hormones in it. It DOESN'T.
Anyway... I left out a lot, I don't remember much except what I told you, and the rest is a bit private. But I need help to conquer my depression. I don't have a regular doctor,and I haven't told a soul about all this in real life. Not RL friends, not family. Please give me some tips on how to get over it, or point me to a free online Shrink?
Ok so I start out on FF.net, writing a whole bunch of Naruto stories... I'm not very public, but I manage. Then one day, I am searching for Akatsuki fan fics, when I come across a story by a writer known at that time by Jingas Meitel. I thought it was a boy, just reading ALL of her amazingly funny stories! I kind of e-stalk her to her forum, and try to get myself acquainted with her.
Things went well at first, but then I started to piss off some of her friends, I don't know how I managed to do that. But a WHILE after that, then things went back to normal and I became friends with the author, Jen and her friend Lauren. Anyway I thought things were ultimately cool between us, so I used some of her comedy idea's in my own stories. It wasn't as cool as I had thought. For revenge, they created one of my worst nightmares: Hayley. She was my 'biggest fan' and also a girl who couldn't spell right at all. I suspected Jen form the start, but that thought quickly diminished.
Hayley in turn, stole MY idea's, like Mr. Lemons, and used them for utter crap fics. (Oh god How I despised her.) Only after... a few months did I learn that it was only Jen, Lauren, and another girl named Emily. That was the first blow.
I was devastated, almost crying my eyes out, thats when the Depression started entering my life. I found it harder and harder to keep my muse, and just calling it laziness. It wasn't. I started to lose my drive. I eventually forgave them, but it happened again, they Internet Trolled me. Depression really started dragging me down then. But then, a few apologies and Trolls later, they did it again, this time more recent. Depression had finally clouded my mind. I was so down, I started to think about what my friends and family would do if I killed myself.
I met some new friends, like Karly, Kelly, Mimi, Judaidara, and Mican. They helped me a bit, and suddenly the depression wasn't as great. I already had a friend who piled it up more and more though, Stephanie. I loved her, and I still think I do, but she used my love and lied to me. One day, I said to her, I have an idea. Lets go back to the way we were before the depression and trolling crap ruined it. She didn't agree, and only babbled on and on about how her water has Female hormones in it. It DOESN'T.
Anyway... I left out a lot, I don't remember much except what I told you, and the rest is a bit private. But I need help to conquer my depression. I don't have a regular doctor,and I haven't told a soul about all this in real life. Not RL friends, not family. Please give me some tips on how to get over it, or point me to a free online Shrink?