PLEASE please tell me what should I do ? feeling very scared of my future ......?

[Pineapple]

I am a 21 yr old male . Right since my childhood , I've been different from the rest of the boys in my social life & playing domain. I never took part in sports or other activities which are typically associated with boys and which instill in boys a sense of confidence and morale , which in my experience is very necessary for a boy's transformation to a "man" . I am really depressed the way things are now and its a very unhealthy sign of future . I was talking to my friend yesterday on phone & he always teases me , but I never mind becoz I know its for my own good , even if he reprimands me .
He said :"So how's your GF doing ?"
Me : "She's fine .
He : "Don't lie ! You don't have a GF . I know you well "
Me : "Why can't I have a GF ? I am a boy , right . So I would have one GF , right ?"
He said in a low voice :"You're not a boy ." In the place I stay people are considered boys / girls until they marry !
And then he said "I understand your feelings ( towards men ) . Every woman have feelings ."
I got surprised and I said "Every .. what !!" .( Are you calling me a woman ?!)
So , he said he was just kidding and in the end he said "Be a MAN , be a man ". I got the point of what he said . All he was trying to say was don't be such a sissy freak ! Be a man and achieve something in life ..

But , my problem is : I have a feminine sounding voice , which is really bothering me considering the fact that I am 21 yr old and such things shouldn't be issue at this age !
ALSO , I sometimes do feel attracted to men ( as my friend on call suspected ! ) , But I only see it as a side-effect of me being not a "man" ..
ALSO , please tell me , should I go out and learn and play cricket , since I never tried that experience and fun in childhood .

Things are bad but they may become worse if I don't do something about it . Will my abused childhood continue to impact my future ? thanks for answering !

 

[Lolita]

heyyyy ....1st go try mingling wit guys and strt playng guy games like cricket, basket ball etc ....... get involved in these stuffs ......

 

[TaffetyPunk]

If you have a friend teasing you on a regular basis and it's making you distressed, they are not a friend. But regardless...

Why not go out and try a few sports? Even just a few lessons. If you don't like them, at least you can say you have tried and that's your decision. If you do like them, you've opened yourself up to new friends and new experiences. Plus, it will keep you fit and healthy, and exercise generally improves your mood and confidence. But it doesn't have to be team sports - I hate exercising with others, and much prefer jogging (it's free!) swimming, and going to the gym.

You can't do an awful lot about your voice. Lots of men have high voices. Lots of women have low voices. People who tease you about it are ignorant and narrow-minded. Associate with them as little as possible.

As for occasionally being attracted to other men...that's not unusual. You're 21, there are probably still hormones shooting around your body, you're still growing up and trying to find your place in the world. Almost everyone at some point has wondered - or even been downright certain - that they fancied someone of the same sex around this age, and it can be a little disconcerting if you've been taught that's 'abnormal'. But it's not. It also doesn't necessarily mean you're gay or bisexual - and even if you are, that's also fine. If you're having pressure put on you by your social circle about how you sound/look/act, leave them, and find people who will accept you for who you are.

 

[gogomania]

You left your childhood. You are a man, do something with your life and don't let it oppress you. If you ever have kids, raise them better than how you were raised. You can't turn back time, but you can save someone from going through what you went through.