DanielPaul
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child..Do you think that made me gay? A humble request to read it and give suggestions
I am now 24...
When I was just 7 years old, I went to my grand father's home
He is my mother's father's brother..
He told me he was going to teach me science and asked me to sit on his lap. I sat on his lap.
As we were reading from the book, he played a lot with my penis for some 15 minutes..(dont remember exactly how long)...he whispered in my ear and asked whether I liked it..I was just 7 YEARS OLD !!! It was a strange feeling for me at that time and I said Yes I liked it...
Actually, I really liked what he was doing to me though I did not understand what exactly was going on
Throughout that day, whenever we were alone, he was just playfully catching my dic* in a very perverse and funny way...like groping it from under the table when having dinner,...
That was then....When I was 13, like any other men , I started to have sexual feelings and masturbate...The feelings were always towards MEN ONLY....Also I when I masturbated in those initial days, I used to think of my grandfather and his touches..
I am 24 now..I was always 100% attracted to MEN ONLY all these years....I never had slightest sexual attraction towards women in my life..
I cannot have a gay partner for reasons like
1) Homosexual marriages are legally accepted but not socially accepted in my place..many dont come out..
2) I am a Christian and strong believer in God...Jesus Christ has done wonderful things in my life...and deep down in my heart I feel that "practising" homosexuality is sin...
I feel trapped now..Not sure how to proceed in my life..I TRIED MY BEST to become straight..i forced myself to feel attracted towards women...But failing miserably
I came out to my parents two years ago..and they are so so so so so worried !!
Few of my college mates are starting to get married..and I feel that my personal life is bleak
I read that child molestation can make people gay...How far is it true?
Do you think I fall in that category?
That son-of-a- bitc* is still alive...Not sure, how many kids are being affected by him..I never saw him in the last 10 years..He is in another town..
I am now 24...
When I was just 7 years old, I went to my grand father's home
He is my mother's father's brother..
He told me he was going to teach me science and asked me to sit on his lap. I sat on his lap.
As we were reading from the book, he played a lot with my penis for some 15 minutes..(dont remember exactly how long)...he whispered in my ear and asked whether I liked it..I was just 7 YEARS OLD !!! It was a strange feeling for me at that time and I said Yes I liked it...
Actually, I really liked what he was doing to me though I did not understand what exactly was going on
Throughout that day, whenever we were alone, he was just playfully catching my dic* in a very perverse and funny way...like groping it from under the table when having dinner,...
That was then....When I was 13, like any other men , I started to have sexual feelings and masturbate...The feelings were always towards MEN ONLY....Also I when I masturbated in those initial days, I used to think of my grandfather and his touches..
I am 24 now..I was always 100% attracted to MEN ONLY all these years....I never had slightest sexual attraction towards women in my life..
I cannot have a gay partner for reasons like
1) Homosexual marriages are legally accepted but not socially accepted in my place..many dont come out..
2) I am a Christian and strong believer in God...Jesus Christ has done wonderful things in my life...and deep down in my heart I feel that "practising" homosexuality is sin...
I feel trapped now..Not sure how to proceed in my life..I TRIED MY BEST to become straight..i forced myself to feel attracted towards women...But failing miserably
I came out to my parents two years ago..and they are so so so so so worried !!
Few of my college mates are starting to get married..and I feel that my personal life is bleak
I read that child molestation can make people gay...How far is it true?
Do you think I fall in that category?
That son-of-a- bitc* is still alive...Not sure, how many kids are being affected by him..I never saw him in the last 10 years..He is in another town..