SeaPrincess
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I've always been straight, but have felt attracted to girls before (so inwardly bi). I'm 23. I feel being open about how I feel, sensually and otherwise, would help others to give me advice.
--I've dated guys only, & felt attracted to them at the time.
--I hate (I mean really hate) the male "parts." I don't even want to see it, ever.
(If that doesn't make me a lesbian, what does? Or do straight women exist who feel this way?)
--I can still feel very attracted to my celebrity crushes when I see films (namely Leo Dicaprio, Orlando Bloom, Brad Pitt. So for a guy to even slightly spark my interest, he has to be on the top of my list of what I find physically attractive. Otherwise, I have minus Zero feelings for guys when I see them.) This gave me hope that I'm bisexual--but even with the most good-looking guy, if I think about the male "anatomy," I'm turned off instantly.
--While girls would find male bodies hot, like the ones on "Spartacus" I'm sure, I find it sooo ick... I'm only attracted to "feminine" looking guys.
--I love seeing female bodies.
--Seeing females touch each another excites me, particularly if it's a loving gesture.
--I'm turned on by girls I have feelings for more than guys, simply because they're female, & therefore, to me, more sensual.
--In my early teens (ages ago to me) I experimented a tiny bit & it was definitely enjoyable. I was fantasizing about girls then too, but that's a hormonal age. I never acted on this attraction since or put much thought into girls until now; maybe because we're taught to be straight, and I never even really considered females an "option."
--When I finally did start thinking about girls this year, I felt I wanted to *make* love to a girl, but couldn't wrap my head around the thought of going down on a girl, which I know s*x with a female involves. As my attraction increased, I felt I'd like it. It doesn't gross me out like straight s*x does.
--I figured out guys lack something I really love: breasts. I feel I'd be really unhappy with a male sensually. When I think about it, I always did feel like something was lacking with the male body.. like foreplay was "incomplete."
--Basically, I think what I really want sensually is the female form.
--My greatest desire was always to share my life, journey and myself, with someone, heart, body, mind..a connection I searched for in vain with my male loves. I'm starting to wonder now, if it's only a woman who can share my mindset. Which leads me to consider something else:
--Has my personality always been "gay" and I never knew it?
--I'm very feminine, a girly-girl in *every* sense. Hate jeans, never wore a t-shirt in my whole life, love pretty dresses. Terrible (really terrible) at sports but I dance & love yoga. I always stand out for being the most girly in every group of people, love to be the princess (my room is filled with flowers, dresses, fairytale theme, pink) & have guys protect me. Today, I'm just as girly, but I really look up to strong women and prefer to be independent. partners should protect each other. I don't feel females should be "less than" guys, no matter how girly.
--So, a lot of this is a psychological shift. It could last, it could not. It feels quite solid to me.
--My celebrity role model is Lucy Lawless. I admire her so.
--My female film star crushes are feminine yet tomboy-ish girls; Kiera Knightley, Emma Watson, Scarlett Johanson.
--I'm absolutely infatuated with the powerful, poetic love between the two female charcs in 'Xena.' It's what led me to realize women *can* be together.
--I feel like a girl can understand me mentally & emotionally, while guys can't.
--My want for a female love feels more "mature" to me than one for a guy. I actually don't want to be dominated or "babied" by guys anymore, or looked at as just "a doll." I prefer to feel like equals in a relationship.
--I'm a romantic, and could never just have s*x with a girl. I search for a bond that can't be broken, a true love & friendship.
Sorry the list is so long...but I have to know. I believe in being natural & hate labels, but need to understand where I fit in. I'm hoping there are people here that have the personal experience to help... Am I a lesbian..?
Thanks for the help.
I do want s*x with a woman, not a man. I thought I conveyed that, sorry, lol. I fantasize about s*x with a girl only.
I mentioned I hate labels because I've seen people console others over the need to label on here before, but I do wish to know if I fit into a definition of "lesbian" more than straight, especially from other lesbians or those that have more experience with this. Thks to any who comment..
--I've dated guys only, & felt attracted to them at the time.
--I hate (I mean really hate) the male "parts." I don't even want to see it, ever.
(If that doesn't make me a lesbian, what does? Or do straight women exist who feel this way?)
--I can still feel very attracted to my celebrity crushes when I see films (namely Leo Dicaprio, Orlando Bloom, Brad Pitt. So for a guy to even slightly spark my interest, he has to be on the top of my list of what I find physically attractive. Otherwise, I have minus Zero feelings for guys when I see them.) This gave me hope that I'm bisexual--but even with the most good-looking guy, if I think about the male "anatomy," I'm turned off instantly.
--While girls would find male bodies hot, like the ones on "Spartacus" I'm sure, I find it sooo ick... I'm only attracted to "feminine" looking guys.
--I love seeing female bodies.
--Seeing females touch each another excites me, particularly if it's a loving gesture.
--I'm turned on by girls I have feelings for more than guys, simply because they're female, & therefore, to me, more sensual.
--In my early teens (ages ago to me) I experimented a tiny bit & it was definitely enjoyable. I was fantasizing about girls then too, but that's a hormonal age. I never acted on this attraction since or put much thought into girls until now; maybe because we're taught to be straight, and I never even really considered females an "option."
--When I finally did start thinking about girls this year, I felt I wanted to *make* love to a girl, but couldn't wrap my head around the thought of going down on a girl, which I know s*x with a female involves. As my attraction increased, I felt I'd like it. It doesn't gross me out like straight s*x does.
--I figured out guys lack something I really love: breasts. I feel I'd be really unhappy with a male sensually. When I think about it, I always did feel like something was lacking with the male body.. like foreplay was "incomplete."
--Basically, I think what I really want sensually is the female form.
--My greatest desire was always to share my life, journey and myself, with someone, heart, body, mind..a connection I searched for in vain with my male loves. I'm starting to wonder now, if it's only a woman who can share my mindset. Which leads me to consider something else:
--Has my personality always been "gay" and I never knew it?
--I'm very feminine, a girly-girl in *every* sense. Hate jeans, never wore a t-shirt in my whole life, love pretty dresses. Terrible (really terrible) at sports but I dance & love yoga. I always stand out for being the most girly in every group of people, love to be the princess (my room is filled with flowers, dresses, fairytale theme, pink) & have guys protect me. Today, I'm just as girly, but I really look up to strong women and prefer to be independent. partners should protect each other. I don't feel females should be "less than" guys, no matter how girly.
--So, a lot of this is a psychological shift. It could last, it could not. It feels quite solid to me.
--My celebrity role model is Lucy Lawless. I admire her so.
--My female film star crushes are feminine yet tomboy-ish girls; Kiera Knightley, Emma Watson, Scarlett Johanson.
--I'm absolutely infatuated with the powerful, poetic love between the two female charcs in 'Xena.' It's what led me to realize women *can* be together.
--I feel like a girl can understand me mentally & emotionally, while guys can't.
--My want for a female love feels more "mature" to me than one for a guy. I actually don't want to be dominated or "babied" by guys anymore, or looked at as just "a doll." I prefer to feel like equals in a relationship.
--I'm a romantic, and could never just have s*x with a girl. I search for a bond that can't be broken, a true love & friendship.
Sorry the list is so long...but I have to know. I believe in being natural & hate labels, but need to understand where I fit in. I'm hoping there are people here that have the personal experience to help... Am I a lesbian..?
Thanks for the help.
I do want s*x with a woman, not a man. I thought I conveyed that, sorry, lol. I fantasize about s*x with a girl only.
I mentioned I hate labels because I've seen people console others over the need to label on here before, but I do wish to know if I fit into a definition of "lesbian" more than straight, especially from other lesbians or those that have more experience with this. Thks to any who comment..