rudeboy_2009
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hello.i want to commit suicide i have tried a lot of things to do it but i hav failed in every chance.i tried injecting air in veins,80-90 sleeping pills(almost every type lorazapam 2mg,nitrozapam 10mg,clonazapam 2mg,mixed three of them i huge quantity ),allergic medicines,to times i cut my wrist but saved,tried carbolic acid and admited into hospital for 6 days and survived at least i have tried suicidal attempts for 12-13 times but every time i survived.i don't know what the hell happens to me.every time i end up with vomiting,and other symptoms.i want to end up my damn life.i dont wanna live i have searched a lot for cyanide but its most probably unavailable here in kolkata.although i can pay any amount for it(upto rs 10000).very soon i am going to try nicotiner overdose.and this time i want to succeed.i have learned how to extract nicotine from common smoking and chewing tobacco.as per many sources it is stated that for a adult 50-60mg of nicotine is fatal but i am a chain smoker and i have tried these things in past so what can be the lethal dose for me?as my body dont react to sedatives and other poisons.nowdays i can take 30-40 sleeping pills without any problem and i wake up in the morning normally even without any headache.
i hav decided to take 400 standard cigarettes of Indian market and will extract nicotine from it and will consume it.plz help me.will it gonna work on me?(plz dont give any advise to live coz i am being treated for last 4 years and living on antidepressants and counseling in regular sessions.these does,nt help me.and i dont believe in god.i am damn depressed and i cannot continue my life like this.i have resigned from my job,almost leaved everything and i want to die.plz help me.
i hav decided to take 400 standard cigarettes of Indian market and will extract nicotine from it and will consume it.plz help me.will it gonna work on me?(plz dont give any advise to live coz i am being treated for last 4 years and living on antidepressants and counseling in regular sessions.these does,nt help me.and i dont believe in god.i am damn depressed and i cannot continue my life like this.i have resigned from my job,almost leaved everything and i want to die.plz help me.