T
thalesgirl
Guest
I had one of those very crazy childhoods... I'm not harping on my past for sympathy, but I've come to realize that it really did affect some things about how I do relationships. I am diagnosed with PTSD, and have great support from therapy, family, etc.
However, dating is kind of the last frontier for me. I get very frightened around guys. I now have a fantastic boyfriend who is warm, trustworthy, etc. And guess what? Being with him still scares the CRAP out of me.
Intimacy is all about letting the other person know who you really are, warts and all, right? Well, I don't know how to let him know I have all this dark stuff inside of me. I have told him a little bit, but I never tell him how scared/disconnected I can be. I pretend to be cheerful because that's what has always worked for me. Most of the time, people don't want to hear you're scared when you're not supposed to be.
Has anyone ever dealt with something like this? How did you cope? Please no mean answers!
However, dating is kind of the last frontier for me. I get very frightened around guys. I now have a fantastic boyfriend who is warm, trustworthy, etc. And guess what? Being with him still scares the CRAP out of me.
Intimacy is all about letting the other person know who you really are, warts and all, right? Well, I don't know how to let him know I have all this dark stuff inside of me. I have told him a little bit, but I never tell him how scared/disconnected I can be. I pretend to be cheerful because that's what has always worked for me. Most of the time, people don't want to hear you're scared when you're not supposed to be.
Has anyone ever dealt with something like this? How did you cope? Please no mean answers!