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Hi guys, ok so I've tried everything I could possibly do. I tried getting back with my ex, getting over my ex, forgiving them for what they did, EVERYTHING. It's driving me insane though nothing brings me peace. Heck, I've even tried praying honestly and sincerely just to let them live in peace and for me to feel peace but what they did just hurt me but I just can't take it anymore!!! My gpa is like a friggin 1.5 from all the stress, I thought about cutting myself for the first time yesterday, and I think I'm developing bipolar. What they did was just too much, and even though it's already been a little over half a year since the breakup and I don't bother my ex or stay in contact or anything, it just pisses me off so much! especially it annoys me how so many people tried to get between the situation and I feel so humiliated that if I show I have any feelings they all just think I'm pathetic and support me ex's side. I wish I could just let it all go, and I've even dated someone else not too long ago, but still the more time passes the more I see my ex is doing fine and no one has stood up for me and said that what they did is wrong. I got this idea from an old friend that I have trouble getting into contact with, but my friend offered to get someone to jump my ex to teach them a lesson. My ex lives in NYC and I don't want them to get like killed or anything, I just want someone to roughen them up and that would make me feel so much better! I know that it's probably wrong, but I deserve at least one good night's sleep. =(