ok so, i'm a 16 year old girl and currently i live with my father. my mom died a few years ago, and since then i haven't really had a mother figure in my life. anyways, me and my dad do not get along whatsoever. he yells, screams, and belittles me often, and before has physically abused me (but not so much). i'm not really a problem child, it's more that we just do don't get along and there is a lot of tension now since my mom's been gone.
so recently, after this has been going on for years, we have decided that i will move out. i'm planning to move in with my grandmother who lives the next city over, which is less than 5 minutes away from where i live now. i will go to the same school to finish up this year, and then maybe do home schooling for the rest of my high school years.
my problem is though, is that i'm scared to move out cause i've never lived with anyone other than my dad. i know we have our differences and sometimes the living situation IS really bad, but at times i do not think it is that terrible. i'm worried that me moving to my gradnmother's might be the wrong decision for me, and i am afraid. my dad is not forcing me, and has given me the option of there or live with him. though he is staying here til june, he will be moving 2 hours away after then. i do want to stay in the area, so i guess that's why i want to stay with my grandmother. my grandma and i get along, but i guess i'm just afraid that i will make a mistake in leaving and will come back, only to be laughed at by my father. i've lived where i've lived now for 4 years, and it's really grown on me and whenever i leave town i get homesick badly.
do i just have cold feet, and am i exaggerating? do you think that i wil be happier living with my grandmother or should i just learn to deal with my father?
so recently, after this has been going on for years, we have decided that i will move out. i'm planning to move in with my grandmother who lives the next city over, which is less than 5 minutes away from where i live now. i will go to the same school to finish up this year, and then maybe do home schooling for the rest of my high school years.
my problem is though, is that i'm scared to move out cause i've never lived with anyone other than my dad. i know we have our differences and sometimes the living situation IS really bad, but at times i do not think it is that terrible. i'm worried that me moving to my gradnmother's might be the wrong decision for me, and i am afraid. my dad is not forcing me, and has given me the option of there or live with him. though he is staying here til june, he will be moving 2 hours away after then. i do want to stay in the area, so i guess that's why i want to stay with my grandmother. my grandma and i get along, but i guess i'm just afraid that i will make a mistake in leaving and will come back, only to be laughed at by my father. i've lived where i've lived now for 4 years, and it's really grown on me and whenever i leave town i get homesick badly.
do i just have cold feet, and am i exaggerating? do you think that i wil be happier living with my grandmother or should i just learn to deal with my father?